Marya Christina, 23 october 2015
Can’t figure out what’s wrong with me
I tried to warn you now, you see?
But you just want this game to go on
And I feel obsessed, too weak to let you go
Cause I enjoy to see you suffer,
I’m a haunted soul, rotten.
Can you blame me?
Keep provoking and you’ll see
I keep my promises, never abandon.
I promised to see you on your knees
It’s satisfying me cause I am sick.
Scream whenever you miss me,
Make me a better person
Just don’t look for other reasons
Don’t complicate this,
Just leave it as it is.
Marya Christina, 3 october 2012
A blank page is waiting 4 me
To write down a poem, but you see
My mind is empty, I can't think
Inspiration's gone for real.
So I'm staring at this page,
Hoping I could get a change
To find somethinf that it'll halp me,
So I think.....
"I can't write cause I'm not happy?"
But I am happy so what should I do?
How to make this work, how to get thru?
I guess I'll just have to stop
Thinking that I'm doing wrong
Clear my head and start think straight
That way, I won't have to blame my faith
For the things that never complished
Cause I'm strong, I did not vanished
Marya Christina, 30 march 2012
It's a long way down
Where Hell is waiting for me now
Those awful creature's devilish laugh,
And their hands pointed out at me,
Are showing me what I did wrong.
Regrets are like a spike in my heart
It's crushing me, I'm falling apart.
That huge pain is an awful symphony
That seemes to never end.
That booling blood that pumps in my veins,
It's burning up my skin, making me a corpse
And by the time I'll get down there,
I'll dissipate as their hands will touch me
Making pain easier to bear.
But mistakes are keeping me alive,
As they are dancing chaosly, laughing in my face,
Stabbing my wounded soul
With millions of arrows and a huge knife
Forced to embrace the Devil,
I'm disgusted by my own fail
Cause I can't fight to make Him disappear,
I'm spreading my wings, wanting to run
But my body is heavy by the fear.
In Hell I'm damned to burn,
No one can save me now.
Every one should learn
That maybe Hell...
Can sometimes be called home.
Kissing the night,
I give in and I'm offering my life.
Escaping? There's no way out,
I'm a prisoner in my own conscience
As I am laying off.
And now I'm counting hours in my head
Til I'll wake up and this dream will be death.
Bitter images will haunt me forever,
Cause I'll remember that once.....
I was dancing with the Devil
Marya Christina, 9 february 2012
The long and lonely road I've been
Got me tired, old and thin.
Almost unrecognizible person ever
Cause I was running-not so clever
I was riding to remember
Who I was before this anger
Got me into deepest dark a while
Which now I want to end it with a smile
It was hard at the beggining
But now I'm closer, close to finish,
Finish this sufferince for ever
Because it made me become a stranger
So now I'm riding to remember
Who I am, who is this stranger?
Who's this human feeling low?
Is she human after all?
I was running like a coward
I was hopeless, I had no power
To move on, listen to them
When they told me I should give in
Give in and accept my cruel faith
My beloved died, I had to think straight
But I left, refused to see
That I was alone, I was just me
I hated life, hated the world
That they were happy and I was alone
So I prayed the Lord t take me
A big stupid which I regret it
Cause the reality was still there
I was alone, I had to bear
This is my life, a paint that it will lay there
Either I see it, either I care.
So now...
Only riding will make me remember
Who I was before this anger
Got me into deepest dark a while
Which now I want to end it with a smile
Marya Christina, 9 february 2012
I love life and all she brings
I love tosmoke and also drink
Lately mornings feeling dizzy,
Are the worse,but life worth living
Parties, sex and all the stupid,
Are just small shit so just fuck it
Cause nobody can ever stop me,
I adore life, I am happy!
Marya Christina, 7 january 2012
Far away from me you are
And it feels like hell, leaving me scars
One for each day I regret
That I let you go, made you forget
Forget us and who you really are
I changed you, made you leave far
Far away from me, from us
Broke my promise, lose that trust
Trust that we used to have
Trust that cost me 'us'
'Us' is gone, far away now
Packed in a box with a red bow
Please forgive me my sweet dream,
For waking up, for losing him
That perfect illusion, I believe
Which was a lie I lived
Marya Christina, 7 january 2012
This is a poem I wrote for my dear friend's birthday Andreea B. for her 18 birthday party
It's not the time to feel too old
Believe me, I've been told.
It's just passing time, you grow
Don't be afraid of letting go,
Letting go of childhood years
And face the world with no fears
It may be good, it may be bad
But that's the world, don't be so sad!
Responsabilities are coming too,
Everybody will tell you what 2 do,
Don't listen to them, it's your time
To show them that you're fine
Show them that you don't need help,
You will manage, you will stand
Do things on your own way,
You won't run away, you'll stay!
Marya Christina, 7 january 2012
Too much noise around me now
Too much noise and I can't stand
I'm feeling like I will cry out
Fall 2 my knees and hit the ground
Yell loud so the world can hear
'I need some love, I need 2 heal!'
Somebody save me while I'm still human
Or I'll fall down much sooner!
I am damned 2 burn in Hell
I can fell I got a spell
My soul will vanish like a breeze,
I'll become a corpse, I'll freeze
Marya Christina, 4 january 2012
Remember me, remember us
Don't blow away, throw to the trash
We've been a whole someday
Now is just dust, we can just pray
Pray that someday we'll be us,
Just you and I and our trust
Our memories, our past,
Remember me, remember us
Do you remember our happines?
Our first time, 'we' endless?
It was perfect back that time,
But now it's ash, feels like a crime
It's a tragedy I can't get through
A strange time, you feel it too?
I wanna die, want to forget
Because another love I won't get
Nothing it will be the same
Nothing feels right when you're away,
Mistake after mistake we make
Coming out of us just fake
We lie ourselves that we are fine,
That we're okay, we're back in line
But we all apart, it's weird
We're strangers now, you see it?
Picture us just like we were
Remember us before we fall
Our memories, our past
Remember me, remember us
Marya Christina, 4 january 2012
Another day without you passed,
Another day, another lost
I lost my soul and I lost you
Can't get it back, I can't get through
I want to go, to carry on
It breaks my heart, it burns my soul
In a second...I'll be just ash
Trapped in a bowl, throwed like a trash
No one will ever remember my face,
I'll be gone, travel in space
Gone for more than hundred years
Washed away by your own tears
Hear myself falling apart,
Piece by piece you'll pick me up
Stick me back just like a puzzle
I'll be a paint lost in the battle
Just a memory blowed by the wind
Just a song played on the field
Washed away by coming years,
Like a person with no more fears
And so...
Another day without you passed,
Another day, another lost
I lost myself, I lost my mind
Can't bring me back, I'm not your kind
Marya Christina, 4 january 2012
It was cold outside, was raining
I almost crushed, but you sustained me
And then you left, you dissapeared
I was alone, feeling just fear
Next day I saw you standing there,
You came to see me, you cared
You came closer, you started whispering...
"Please forgive me, I left you tearing"
I smiled and I said nothing
You just looked into my eyes, were dancing
We sank into our world, unknown
Altough we never saw before, we felt like a whole
I came one night in the same place
I found you there, with your angelic face
We started talking falling in love
We were obssesed, we were like soulmates
We can't live one without the other
So you protect me just like a father
I am your little baby doll
You're always there, you never let me fall
I always dreamt about perfection
And now I got it, it's out of question
I'll never doubt of this endless adventure
Because I love it, is in my nature
Marya Christina, 3 january 2012
You let go of my hand
I never wanted to let you go.
You thought that I can stand
But I am crushing, I'm dying slow!
My nights became a nightmare
You didn't cared, you never showed
My heart broke and I got scared
You looked away, you didn't see me!
But then I thought that I can rise
And I did, I deal with life
I can let you go now, no regrets
I want 2 go, you want 2 to go, so let's!
Marya Christina, 3 january 2012
Crawling back into the night
A shadow makes you hold on tight
He's coming out to steal your soul
It makes you come in the unknown
He will make your heart beat faster
When he'll whisper in your ear
That he'll crush you like a poster,
Close enough to make you fear
You're not afraid, he'll tear you down!
Burring you 3 foots into the ground
Is a lesson, never dismiss
That he can kill you with just a kiss!
He doesn't want to make you dinner
He'll protect you do not fear,
No doubt that he will love you
Till forever, no pretending to!
Just wait 4 him, don't run away
Wait for him, wait for that day!
When he'll come to be with you
Don't ask too much, just love him too!
You'll be dancing under the moon
With his hands tight around you
Feel his cold heart beating fast
It beats for you same as in the past
Don't ever let go of his hand
He'll crushing down, he won't stand
But he'll rising up one day
And he'll find you, so please stay!
You can't run and you can't hide
He will kill you on the inside
You will suffer, you'll want to die
He won't feel mercy, just hate, just crime!
Marya Christina, 3 january 2012
You left without a word
I let you go without a show
We see each other all the time
But we avoid, no crossing line!
I always wondered how you feel,
Now that we're both acting weird
What had happened bak that time?
I did something out of line?
I wish I tell you that I miss you
But will that matter, no more issues?
Holding back with million reasons,
Let time pass, forget those seasons!
We used to talk most of the time,
But you hate me now, you're gone
Or you just lied, hard to admit,
That I am something that you can miss?
Have you een hiding all this time?
Trying to make me commit a crime?
To make me say....'I love you' thing?
No way dude...I'm hiding still!
Marya Christina, 28 december 2011
Sometimes I miss you,
Sometimes I don't
Always wondered, what went wrong?
Was is me or was it you,
Was it both, what could be wrong?
Sometimes I hate you,
Sometimes I don't
Always wondered, what went wrong?
Was it hate or was it love?
Was it both,what could be wrong?
Does it matter how I feel?
Does it counts my ways to dream?
You still love me or you don't?
Is it both, what could be wrong?
Do you miss me like I do?
Does it matter all we've been through?
Was it me or was it you?
Was it both, what could be wrong?
Maybe's better for us both,
Going separately on our own
You wanted hate not real love,
You got that, now let me go!
Marya Christina, 28 december 2011
You walked away, you left me there
Bleeding, with no air
I started screaming feeling lost
Still you left, no broking heart!
How could you forget the rest?
There's no hole into your chest?
Don't you ever wonder why?
Why after all this time,
I'm still there, hurt, no life,
Learning living half alive?
I wish that you would turn around
To see me rising up
No more tears into my eyes,
No more begging,
No more try!
Walk away, leave me behind,
It's okay, I'll be alright!
But you'll burning up alive
From the hate inside your heart,
You'll lose what you love the most
That's a promise, not a curse!
Marya Christina, 28 december 2011
Clse your eyes and try to dream
Imagine you and me,
Holding hands around the lake
Telling stories with no end
You dream about a perfect time,
I just want you to be mine
No more problems between us,
Just a story, just like that!
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