steve, 24 october 2023
It's not easy when you're here, time hasn't eased the pain...
And I'm not yet strong enough, that I can break the chains,
I thought that I was stronger, till you came into view...
But when my eyes met yours, I already knew,
You still have my heart, as I'm hanging by a thread...
And I still carry regret, for words I never said,
It's my last chance to reach you if you'll only let me in...
I'll show you what you've never felt, and never will again,
You have nothing to lose, and everything to gain...
I don't want to say goodbye, but I'm weary of the pain,
I know that your uncertain, on a road you've never been...
So take my hand, let me lead, and this journey will begin,
I promise "no regrets", if you'll let me touch your heart...
And I will keep it close to mine until the day I part.
steve, 22 october 2023
I pray I go to heaven when my days come to an end...
But heaven came to me, the day that you walked in,,
I've never seen more beautiful when you come into view...
The world around me disappears, all I see is you,
I have no words to describe.. when I lay my hands on you...
For no one else in this world.. could I feel the things I do,
You don't even have a clue.. how much you mean to me...
And I will never burden you.. for someone you can't be,
You keep your feelings buried, so you won't come apart...
You try so hard to hide it, but I see into your heart,
I feel the pain inside you, but you won't let me in...
You keep pushing me away, you forget that I'm your friend,
Anything.. is what I'd do.. to see you smile again...
And anything I didn't do.. would have to be a sin,
I can't cure what ails you, but I can ease your pain...
I can't stop the storm, but I can shield you from the rain,
Remember "strength in numbers", as the willow learns to bend...
Your not facing life alone, as long as you have friends.
steve, 19 october 2023
I'm standing at a crossroads.. as time just passes by...
They say time waits for no man.. and it does no good to cry,
I watch the years pass by me.. and watch friends come and go...
You lose some of the ones you love.. as time will take its toll,
I doubt that you will understand.. when I look at you I stare...
But I've loved you for a thousand years.. and a time when you did care,
Just this once. let down your walls.. and let my heart come in...
And I will take you to a place... I know you've never been,
I'm waiting for an invite.. that can only come from you...
Praying for a green light.. instead of midnight blue,
I don't know how to ask again... but I'll give it one more try...
As the flames you sparked so long ago.. still refuse to die,
It's like you have a spell on me.. and I have no control...
As I dream about you every night.. why can't I just let go,
Let me pretend.. there's something more.. and lay my hands on you...
Let me show you who I am... before our time is through,
You don't have to look at me.. just close your eyes and dream...
Life is rarely black and white.. and never as it seems,
You don't have to do a thing... you don't even have to care...
And when the morning sunlight comes... I'll be far away from there,
You don't have to say the words.. or even say my name...
But I promise if you give me time.. you'll never feel the same,
I have no expectations... I have only love for you...
I hope you find it in your heart.. to see beyond whats true,
I'll ask once more... hear my words and give this gift to me...
And I will place it in my heart.. for "all eternity".
steve, 19 october 2023
No one really gives a dam.. what I feel inside...
They don't know what lonely is.. or just how much I've cried,
I don't care what people say.. when my back is turned...
My whole life I've had to fight.. and every scar I've earned,
I'm never going to have the love.. that other people share...
Love is pain and hard to find... while life is seldom fair,
I need to have someone... I can run to now and then...
And spend a little time with.. who's a little more than friend,
Someone who gets lonely too... someone who is free...
Someone who is not afraid.. to give themselves to me,
If only for an hour.. to chase away the rain...
Where lonely isn't welcome.. as you leave behind the pain,
There's nothing that you have to say.. nothing you must do..
All I ask is to come in.. and I'll take care of you,
And when the sky turns grey again.. and lonely's at the door...
Together we can face the storm, til lonely is "no more"
steve, 19 october 2023
There's so much that I want to say.. but the words I cannot find...
Though day or night it's all the same. your always on my mind,
I knew the road I'd chosen.. wouldn't always be so clear...
With twists and turns and one-way signs.. that finally led me here,
But I never for a moment.. since the day you said "I Do"...
Thought I'd see a sunrise.. or wake up without you,
I am at a loss for words.. as I stumble through the days...
What I used to see so clearly.. has now become a haze,
I try to reckon in my heart.. just where that I went wrong...
And how I let.. slip through my hands.. the love that you had shown,
You made your vows of love to me.. "till death do we part"...
For thirty years.. is just one chance.. too much to ask your heart?
When I made vows of love to you..and you became my wife...
I thought we'd grow.. to be as one.. until the end of life,
Don't let the love we had so long.. just wither on the vine...
Don't break this heart beyond repair.. and say that you'r not mine,
Don't disappear beneath me.. or let us fade away...
To let go after thirty years.. is just too much to pay,
I would climb a mountain.. or swim in the ocean blue...
And if I'm taking my last breath.. my thoughts will be of you,
Don't give up on what we had.. or what we'll have again...
Our love was like a fairy tale.. and can be that way again,
I'm sorry if I let you down.. if you thought I didn't care...
Your my world.. Your my wife.. there's nothing that compares.
steve, 18 october 2023
The wind blows gently through the trees, as I stare up at the moon...
While the leaves all dance in the moonlight, which looks like a big balloon,
I sit here with thoughts of you in my head, stuck in the same lucid dream...
Hoping and praying someday I'll get through, a life that is not what it seems,
It's a heartbreaking tragedy, the one I love is stuck in a preconceived hell...
Effectively closing any doors that I've opened, ensuring my chances to fail,
How do I reach you before it's too late, as the hourglass sand runs out...
How do I show you what we stand to lose, if I can't make you let go of doubt,
Please give me a chance I'll give all that I have, to save us from dying alone...
Let go of the doubt to what lies ahead, we could find what we've never known.
steve, 16 october 2023
I wish things could be different, as my world is "scarlet blue"...
If only it were black & white, as is my love for you,
I wouldn't sit here crying, over things I cannot change...
As cupid hits me yet again, when he knows your out of range,
I'll never lay beside you, on a moonlight summer night...
Never feel your lips on mine, never hold you tight,
I'll never feel your touch, caress any part of me...
And I can't even fathom, what love from you could be,
My whole world is "scarlet blue", when you're not around...
A grain of sand on an endless beach, hoping to be found,
A dream without an ending, no answer to a prayer...
Live this life pretending, that I don't really care.
steve, 16 october 2023
You'll give away to anyone, what I need from you....
I'll beg, I'll cry, I'll plead, but I just can't get through,
My pain and tears of anguish, fall upon deaf ears...
You could end in minutes, what I have felt for years,
Why do you let me suffer, your supposed to be my friend?
You know from where my torment comes, why don't you make it end?
And how is it "not selfish", to leave me here to die...
I've always been there for you, but you won't even try,
Do you have "no love" for me at all, do I need to walk away?
Friendship is a two-way street, but your only going one way,
I'll love you till the day I die, do I have to wait that long?
Before you "finally realize", you couldn't be more wrong.
steve, 16 october 2023
I don't want to say the things, I always say to you...
And I don't want to cry the tears, that I always do,
I don't want to ask again, for something you won't give...
When your here it hurts too much, and that's no way to live,
Goodbye's the only answer, to rid me of the pain...
"Out of sight, out of mind", might just keep me sane,
It's not a choice I choose to make, it's what I have to do...
This broken heart can take no more, of living life askew,
If we'd done this, or I'd done that, if you'd given me a chance...
If you'd learn to let your heart decide, it might of said "just dance",
I'd like to think I'm more, to you than just a friend,
But you won't let me get that close, and I cannot pretend,
If you never "take a chance", on understanding something new...
How much have you missed, when it's right in front of you?
Life is taking chances, and learning as we grow...
If you never try another path, how will you ever know?
And though this is goodbye, I leave with you my heart...
It's something that belongs to you, and has from the start.
steve, 16 october 2023
It hurts...that you can walk away... without a second thought...
When all I do.. is think of you.. wanting to or not,
The days are long without you.. as the smile I wear's pretend...
And the black abyss.. that we call night.. seems to have no end,
I can't make you care for me.. but I can't just walk away..
Until I hear it.. from your lips.. what you have to say,
This hearts already broken.. from that old familiar pain...
But I'd wait for you forever.. even in the pouring rain,
So look into this heart once more.. beyond what you might see...
Feel the love that's there for you.. and say "you don't want me",
Tell me whats inside your heart, it's what I need to know...
Tell me that you'll never care, so at last I can let go.
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