Bunny Crunch, 4 january 2013
Anger fills every vein
In your furious face
And I think that soon,
They'll burst
And I'll never have to see
Your merciless glare
That I could never make a smile
Only hate
Merciless,
Reasonless
Invisible pride
In me you could never find
I glance at the shining fire
Next to me
Lighting a candle to bring a smile
To the sweetest kid I've ever known
The fire vanishes
Smoke flies
Bringing tears
To my eyes
You're worthless
These words, I've only ever
Heard from you
I wanted pride, approval
Though when I ever made
Those emeralds shine
It was with anger
With hate
I think back, try to be you
For even seconds
Just to know
Why I could never make you proud
And I find nothing
Nothing in the past
I knew your father
He was great
And so were all
Your memories
He would've told me
If they weren't
Honesty
Such a wonderful gift
One that was much too sweet
To ever be given by you
I never wanted you
The words, so like a knife
Could only hurt me
If from you
In my past, I can find nothing
No method, only madness
That still takes its toll on me
Even on my brightest days
I can't begin to imagine
What I did to you
To anyone
That no matter what I did
I couldn't make those emeralds shine
That had once meant so much
But now are no more than another stone
On the road that first began my life.
Bunny Crunch, 27 july 2012
Glittering moonlight reflects off the shining grass.
Calm rain glides off the leaves of the trees above us,
Pours gentle mist across my feet.
The warm wind flows through my hair.
Gentle starlight brushes across the shadows
In illuminating waves.
Sweet berries fall around us
From high branches of surrounding trees.
The wind carries new rainbow petals
Brought around the world and back just to surround us.
The chirping birds serenade us with their lullaby,
Later to awake the sunrise.
The fresh rain leaps from the sky onto young perennials.
Gel drips from my damp hair,
Filling the cool air with tropical citrus.
The rain scatters across the shimmering grass.
The wind is a force field
Circling closer around us,
Keeping all the world away.
As close as it circles,
It never comes as close as we are
And the glittering moonlight
Never outshines my smile
Bunny Crunch, 27 july 2012
The fire crackled
Then exploded
Flames circled
Close around me
The new light
So close to me
The shield of heat
Captured the cool
Smoke clouds rose
Dissolving the air
As well as my hope
That I could ever win
I closed my eyes
Felt the heat
Then a rush
Of hope
I took the water that was there now
Spilled it all around
Flames melted into dust
Smoke transformed into air
My hope returned
I just won
The fire was gone
And everything was fine
Don't stand too close to the fire
Everyone says
But I have to
Or I'll never know
How to put it out
When it comes again
Bunny Crunch, 27 july 2012
Rain falls slower than my tears
The night drags on
I lay awake
Breathing nothing but the tears I cry
I gaze at the distant city lights
And all I can think
Is of that day
When I got rainbow hair
But stronger than the rainbow glow
Reflected through my hair
The pain still stays
Grows stronger with every shining tear
That falls
No matter what you do
To try to make it up to me
You can't
No number of childhood dreams
You recreate to be true
No matter every wish you grant
You used to call impossible
You hit me way too hard
When I ruined your car with paint
To love me as much
As you keep telling me you do
No matter how many presents
You give me
You can't make me forget
And I never will
These words, now all you say
I'm sorry, Matt
Even if they're true
Can never take the pain
I still feel
When I think of you
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