Poetry

Here I am another night,,
about to cry...
I'm wondering if I'm in the right...
I pick up a razorblade and it feels so wrong.
I'm cursing at myself for listening to these sad songs...
I know right now that your hands are on her hips
and she is on your lips...
That should be me,,
locked in that kiss.
 
You are the only one that I love but also want to forget.
I know how stupid I am in this moment.
I want to see your smile but it makes me want to lay down and die.
 
You are breaking my heart;
I'm falling apart... If there wasn't really a hello
then I guess this isn't really a goodbye
but it still makes a tear swell in my eye.
I've never felt this way about a guy..
 
Time after time, I try.
I reach out...
Despite my self-doubt.
I watch my heart get stolen
and watch my happiness grow swollen...
Then in a flash
the present becomes the past...
It was surely a wise man that said,,
'The good things in life never last'
 
I really love you more today than I did yesterday
but your ambivalence is something I can't take.
I don't think you understand that to me
this isn't a game.
 
God gave me life,,
you gave me love,,
and the world gave me pain...
You take two of these things away and add to one with every
'I love you' you speak to another name..
 
It really is a damned shame that you don't see that
I'd fight 'til the death for you
and before I died...
I would share my final breath with you...
 
Baby,,
I know right now
that your hands are on her hips
and she is on your lips...
But that should be me,,
locked in that kiss.
 
By, Michaela Rose Blevins