Poetry

I love him
I love him with all my heart and soul
But I have a fear
A fear that I cant tell is real memory or just a fear I planted inside myself
But either way
I fear
Not for me
Not for my well being
But for his
For the man who saved me from death
Who brought light, love, and trust to my life
I fear that he will be hurt and maybe worse
I fear cause it would be my fault
Cause of this memory I cant tell is real or not
If it is real
Then not only will he be hurt but I will be forever in captivity
In a place I don't want to be
Being forced to love a man who will not die
Being away from all I care for
And most of all with the knowledge that it was all my fault
My fault for his hurt both Physical and mental
For it would be my fault
The downfall of the man I love with all my heart
The pain maximized in my love
The torment in my Kyle
And I fear for him
Not for myself
If I could find the truth buried deep inside him I would be able to save him
And save both our hearts
So until the truth is revealed
I must fear
And I must have the nightmares
I just hope this fear is artificial
And that I may live the rest of my days in happiness
But if not it will be the downfall of two people in love
Cause of a fucked up future that cannot be changed
That cannot be avoided
That was not chosen by me but by the ones who made me
So until the truth is revealed
I must fear


~ Ankoku Gekido