Jason, 13 november 2011
I’m losing everything, my life is falling apart.
I’ve lost my love, my family, and now I’ve lost my heart.
Now I have, no reason to stay.
They were my life, which now faded away.
I have no chance, to live through it all.
Some say it will get better, but my hopes are small.
I’ve lost my morals and my dignity, so true.
So just let me go, I know that I failed you.
Don’t hate me, because my decisions were wrong.
I regret everything, which I have felt for so long.
I keep it all inside me, so nobody has to see.
What all the messed up things are, the world has done to me.
I should have just let go, a long time ago.
Then nobody would have to see, all the things that have shown.
It’s okay to point your finger, for all the things I’ve done.
I know I’ve made mistakes, but I’m not the only one.
So now I just see dark, ahead there is no light.
I feel no heartbeat, my body is pale and white.
So now the world turns cold, and nobody is around.
This is the one day, that all I’ve lost is never found.
Jason, 13 november 2011
Some won’t believe, the things I’ve done.
I hate life, the killing has just begun.
Don’t stand in my way, or you’ll be next.
Everybody has put, my mind to the test.
I’ve reached the point, and now I will break.
My world is full, of anger, hurt and hate.
My mind is full of rage, is what nobody can see.
The thoughts in my mind, just cause the agony.
What can be done, to make it all go away?
Just live in more misery, each and every day.
Jason, 13 november 2011
Alone and quiet, dark and cold.
Empty and hollow, lonely and old.
I feel as if the road never ends.
Once it does, I smile again.
I live in misery, every day and night.
I try to forget, but it’s vivid and bright.
What can be done, to make this go away?
If not, we live in shame, every single day.
When my eyes close, I see it all again.
This will follow me, until the end.
To know what I lost, because of my choice.
The things that I miss, the sounds and the voice.
Now that it started falling apart.
I quit even trying, I know it’s my fault.
I have learned, to walk alone.
It is very, lonely and long.
This is one thing, I will never forgive.
I don’t think anybody, like this should live.
If you want it, then don’t wait.
Because when you do, it could be too late.
Jason, 11 november 2011
The days go by, how many are left?
Not very many, her
life is a mess.
The one that took it
all away.
Is the one that I
wanted to stay.
I long for her touch,
and the heart that was torn.
She keeps taking and
taking, until there's no more.
But now for her, she
has found a new friend.
They call it the
needle, which will be with her to the end.
I try to help, and
she pushes me away.
She is in denial,
every single day.
So I just step back,
I've done what I can.
Now it is up to her,
to want that chance again.
Jason, 11 november 2011
Mirror, mirror
That I see
Show me what I wish to be.
A world not dark,
Just full of hope
A place where people,
Would love to go
Mirror, mirror
That I see
Show me what I want to be
A place where love,
Is everywhere.
The love that people
Wish to share.
Mirror, mirror
That I see
Show me what I need to see
A place where life,
We would enjoy.
A place where all,
Won’t be destroyed.
Mirror, mirror
That I see
Show me what I really see.
A world that’s dark
And full of hate.
A place where all
We see are mistakes.
Mirror, mirror
That I see
Show me what I’m going to see
Everything is black,
It’s all condemned.
The road that takes us
To our end.
Jason, 11 november 2011
My world is full of hate, not love.
It’s cold and dark, no light above.
It gets harder and harder every
single day.
Nobody wants to live this way.
I should find a hole to crawl in.
Then nobody will ever see me again.
That would make it a better place.
Where nobody has to see my face.
I sit in the dark, my eyes glowing
red.
With all these thoughts racing
through my head.
I’ve tried to make all of this end.
It just seems to happen again and
again.
How do I make this go away?
This is my life, nobody should have
to stay.
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