stephanie, 21 march 2012
by: stephanie
The pain seems inevetable
pressing against these very lungs that permitt my existence
it has become an endless hurt, that forbids my soal to sing
i must endure it today and again tomarrow
i will relive every memory as if it was yesterday
in these moments all the fragments of knowledge i once possesed
fade away from me,lost in thought,pondering the happieness i once understood to be real
i am sickened by what consumes my dreams having to endure every convulsion that overcomes me
my heart set away becomes conflagerated
i peruse throughout a juncture of time, that proceeds spatially,in sudden upheavals of agony
it is inconceivable to me in what manner this deliquency become saticfactory to a vast populace of people depotism has become a thing people constantly are striving to obtain even to the point where those who wish for power become evasive overtaking in vast quantitys as they become complacent they cannot gravitate between what is right and very wrong now they imply i must now remit what i so desperately once charished their need for acscendancy i do not say this in mandacy but to schism away from from beneavement that has enveloped in my life and perhaps my very being i couldn't ask for a better gift than to have this constenation fade from me and then once again feel greatest joys...
stephanie, 21 march 2012
by: stephanie
In a shadowed emotionless world I feel nothing,
Cause there is nothing to feel
But in a world of greatest pain
And unfathomable sorrows and joys
I still feel nothing
Cause there's nothing to feel
Because in this world, love is just lust
Pain is embarrassment
Even the truth is a lie
Would you care if the sun forbade to shine?
Would you listen if the seas turned you ill?
If every moment is somebody's last, why do you waste it?
If love is a gift meant to be cherished, why do you give it away so freely?
If every word was a dagger in somebody's chest, would you regret it?
If the moon was to turn the color of blood
And the stars poured from the sky blazing white with heat, what would you feel?
In a shadowed emotionless world,
Would anything change?
stephanie, 21 march 2012
by: stephanie
This is a time in my life when everything should be going right
But instead I feel like it's all crashing down
Like there's a dark cloud looming overhead
Trapped inside, I can't find my way out of the darkness
Where will I find my light?
You say it's all ok
Like you think everything's going to work out fine between us
But we both know that isn't so
I'm hiding in shadows
And pushing along
All you do is drag my heart down scattering the pieces all around
One stupid mistake
Then you took everything away
You never gave me a choice
You ripped out my voice
Stole the one thing that I cherished most
At night you haunt my dreams
Bringing back dreaded memories of that night
Slowly I'm collecting all the pieces
Mending my heart
But in your pocket still you keep
One stolen piece
That I'll never get back...
stephanie, 21 march 2012
by: stephanie
One day I'll find him again
That is my long lost kin
From a failing mother
Came my distant brother
Separated for reasons not of our control
I wonder if she can see the hurt we have endured
And the mistakes she made can not be cured
For this my heart is stained by tears
Building up throughout these endless years
The distance has cut between as days drag along
The choices she made if asked, would she know it was wrong.
Overwhelmed with grief that comes with a loss
Until the day fate permits one day our souls to cross
Within my heart I'll forever cherish
A memory that will fade but not perish
There have been many days with no light
Tears that fall throughout the night
Even if they say never
I'll search this place forever
Through the debris him I will find
So keep this in mind
For now you disagree
And yet soon you will see
One day I'll find him again
That is my long lost kin
From a failing mother
Came my distant brother
stephanie, 21 march 2012
Everything changes
A new chapter when you turn the pages
Another road a fresh new start
And yet still it breaks my heart
It makes leaving here very tough
But whatever I try will never be enough
For you to leave me here
So into this story I’ll disappear
I’m fading so fast
Leaving behind my life, and my past
Covered in a misty frost
Evens these cherished memories can never be lost
I won’t even begin to try
Because I can’t bear saying goodbye
As these days grow very few
Already I start missing all of you
I know there must be a reason for all of this
So into this coming storm I’ll persist
Not quite sure where I am going
But in the distance a light is growing
So for now I’ll take it in and force a smile
Pushing through every trial
Trusting that I’ll find a way
To come back even if I can’t stay
As years go by, everything changes
A chapter to revisit, as I’m turning back pages
by stephanie kappler
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