steve, 3 september 2019
I've been "holding on" for life, for love, for us, for me...
I thought the storm would pass by now, so that we both may see,
But the skies are even darker, than they were the day before...
And the distant sound of thunder, says that soon the rain will pour,
The cold wind stings, and takes its toll, each time that we lash out...
And it's one step back, from where we were, when you live in love and doubt,
The rain pours down upon me, I've been holding on so long...
I thought by now you'd know me, but I've never been so wrong,
The stars once shined above our heads, now it seems like its been years...
And I haven't seen a clear night yet, but it's hard to see through tears,
And I wonder if the chance we had, is all we threw away...
Or just how much, that we have lost, for things we didn't say.
steve, 27 august 2019
I feel a fire raging.. deep down in my soul...
White hot flames are burning.. and know ones in control,
You can't know just how I feel.. and know one has a clue...
Of the fire raging inside me... when all I want is you,
I wish that I could tell you.. exactly how I feel...
Instead of stepping lightly.. while trying to conceal,
Life is more exciting.. when I look into your eyes...
I can feel every heart beat.. as my blood begins to rise,
Everything inside of me... I'm trying to control...
Like a moth to a flame-... I can feel it in my soul,
I wish that you could look at me... the way you look at her...
So I could feel the passion.. the way we never were,
To know the love inside your heart..or the heat beneath your skin..
There's nothing that I wouldn't do.. that I wouldn't do again,
I know the dreams I have of you.. live only in my head..
And any tears that have to fall.. are tears that I have shed,
I know that you don't understand.. why would you even care...
For you don't know the depth of love.. for you my heart must bear,
And though I cannot say out loud.. my true hearts desire..
You can see me from a hundred miles.. for I'm the "man on fire".
steve, 27 august 2019
There's a "monsoon" pouring down... in my heart and in my head...
And I can't stop the rain... from things that have been said,
The torrent that is rushing by... is washing me away...
And the years keep coming faster... leaving only yesterday,
Dreams I used to carry... have turned to nothing more...
Then vessels on the water... never reaching any shore,
The winds of time are blowing strong... but have yet to lift my sails...
And nothing that I've done in life... have ever tipped the scales,
It's like I'm here, but I'm not... and nothing that I do...
Will change a single thing... or make me visible to you,
Sometimes when I think I'm right... everything is wrong...
The years are passing way too fast... but nights are still too long,
If I've learned anything... it's that life's not what you think...
And when it's good... hold on tight... for it passes in a blink,
So let the rains fall down upon me... let it wash all over me...
Let my tears fill the rivers ... that are heading out to sea,
Let the tides rise and wash away.. the pain we hold onto.....
And maybe give us one more chance, at love we once knew.
steve, 29 june 2019
I never want to hear your name.. it reminds me of what we had...
And I don't want to feel that pain.. for nothing hurts so bad,
I have to pick up the pieces.. and just keep on moving on...
And "don't look back".. no matter what.. for what we had is gone,
I cannot hear the words you say.. it's just a convient lie...
A way to break my heart again.. as you promise to "really try",
I cannot see your beauty.. real beautys from within...
I've seen what lives inside you.. and I can't go there again,
I don't know how I loved you.. or why I love you still...
Or where the strength to leave you comes... I only know I will,
So save your words.. speak not of love.. and I'll be on my way...
As the dawns begun to light the sky.. and begin a brand new day.
sg
steve, 29 june 2019
As I lie here and watch you sleeping.. I can't help but crack a smile...
I feel the peace upon your face.. knowing all the while,
This is where I want to be.. with you always by my side...
Because your the reason I carry on.. my purpose and my pride,
They say that life's a circle.. but mines an uphill shot...
With winding roads.. and pain untold.. and battles yet un-fought,
If your love is my reward.. for the scars that I have earned...
Then I can walk through any fire.. and I cannot be burned,
You are my light.. you are my strength.. your a gift from "God" above...
And if ever there was a "ment to be".. you are my "one true love".
sg
steve, 28 june 2019
The sun is getting lower, as it streaks across the sky...
And the nights keep getting longer, without you by my side,
I don't know just what to do, that would turn it all around...
For everything I thought I knew, has now become unwound,
Your act is so indifferent, I'm not sure just who you are...
I used to think that we were close, but now you seem so far,
Just how is it ok, to hurt the one you love...
To not stand up for what is right, when you should rise above,
To never say you're sorry, or admit that you were wrong...
To let the ones who love you most, suffer all alone,
And what's the price we'll have to pay when the walls come tumbling down...
As you burn the bridges that we build and any love we found,
Is it pride or is it anger, that has a hold on you...
And keeps you bound to fear and hate, in everything you do,
I've been waiting for the light within you, to awaken in your heart...
To bring to life, and back to me, what's been torn apart,
I pray our love is strong enough, and that you'll finally see...
True love can heal anything, and bring back what used to be.
steve, 28 june 2019
How do I bring you back.. to where we used to be...
To show whats in my heart.. and what you mean to me,
How do I heal the damage.. from angered words we say..
When the only thing that matters.. is wanting you to stay,
How do I give to you.. the love you need so bad...
When I'm not sure just how to give..what I've never had,
How do I say goodbye.. when my heart will not let go...
And the words I speak all fail me.. when my heart I try to show,
How do I live without you.. when without you I can't live...
And to hold you in my arms once more.. this life I'd gladly give.
steve, 28 june 2019
If I was given just one wish.. to turn my life around...
My wish would be, for you and me.. to keep what we have found,
I've many regrets and sorrows.. and paid too high a cost...
I've laughed.. I've cried.. I've run to hide.. for mistakes, and loved ones lost,
But then you walked into my life..and now the skies are blue...
It seems at last.. the rain has past.. and everything is new,
I feel that "God" has smiled at me.. for enduring all the rain...
And given me someone to love.. someone who'll ease the pain,
If I was given just "one wish"..... to turn my life around...
I'd give it back.. for what I lack.. in you these things I've found.
steve, 25 june 2019
Its when your not around.. that makes me realize...
All the things I tell myself.. are nothing more than lies,
I'll say that I don't need you.. pretending that's it's true...
But when you're gone.. and it's just me.. all I want is you,
I'll tell myself.. don't fall in love.. for love will never last...
But I know too well.. to save my heart.. the time has long since past,
I thought at last.. when I found love.. how perfect it would be...
Everything would fall in place.. and we'd never disagree,
But "perfect is a fairytale".. life is what is real...
Happy.. sad .. content..or mad.. this is what we feel,
I guess I should surrender.. I could never walk away...
For if never there was darkness.. there could never be a day,
I will always love you... and we'll always disagree...
So I will learn to look beyond.. to just the love I see.
steve, 25 june 2019
The sun came up again today.. and though you're still not here...
I can't see a reason why... that I should shed a tear,
But I wipe my eyes.. and I go on.. to face another day...
While the shadows of your memory.. in my head begin to play,
After all the years.. after all the times.. after all that, we've been through...
How could you "turn and walk away"... while I'm still in love with you,
What more to life.. is there than love... though some shall never know...
But I can barely breathe at all.. for my heart will not let go,
What words to say to touch your heart.. and bring you back to me...
To show you all the love we had... and what it still can be,
If just once... I could turn back time.. to the day when we first met...
For one more chance to get it right.. and live without regret.
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