Karen Degnan Foiles, 25 april 2013
All I talked about was you
The months before you were home
Not a call or a text, but on facebook
I find out your home like everyone else
She got the surprise
A hug she could not even give
I’d given you hugs and kisses
And said I’m so proud and cry
I know you never meant to hurt me
But that night I cried like a baby
A mother needs to know she’s loved
Just like a son needs to be proud of
I wanted to know when you’d be home
So I could arrange some time to spend
You could not give me that
Yet it was the night before you left
You still haven’t changed
Still avoiding situations
Like not knowing how to tell people
You just want to hang with friends
But I’m YOUR MOM dammit
I think I have the right
To see you more than once
The 2 weeks you’re home from Kuwait
Maybe I wasn’t a good mom
Is this really what you think
But you won’t tell me
Cause you’ll avoid that just the same
She texted me to let me know you’d be home
So I called and texted,
I’m home on facebook you said
Yet no reply I got
Your actions speak louder
Than the few words you say
I see where I stand
In your small world you stay
** I wrote this after my son in the Army come home the first time on leave...
Karen Degnan Foiles, 25 april 2013
Ah yes, the word frustration
It’s the maker of impatience
The words calm and collect
Have no relation
Just when you think all is right
You find yourself waiting for that moment
That check, that special person to arrive
Failure to deliver, trust taking a dive
When you count on something
And it does not happen
You get upset and uptight
You say never again
Then you do it all over again
Karen Degnan Foiles, 24 april 2013
I can say things I never thought
You bring out the best in me
I can feel things I’ve never felt
You bring out the best in me
I can see things more clearly now
No more stress, only calmness
I can laugh out loud and be a little goofy
And it’s nice to know you really “get” me
The comfort I feel is unmatched and surreal
I can be myself and not worry to conceal
I have someone I love and need
You’re in my thoughts and heart indeed
Even as we sleep I feel I must reach
To make sure you’re not a blissful dream
The love we make, the passion we feel
Is like no other I have felt that was real
Karen Degnan Foiles, 24 april 2013
What's done is done
You can't go back and change it
It's time to move on
You can't rearrange it
You've paid your price
And it's time to proceed
No matter what your vice
Unsteady as it seems
You'll rise above anything
You rebuild your self-esteem
You feel like you're grasping
At a big ball of string
One string at a time
One day at a time
You're growing into
A better person in time
Karen Degnan Foiles, 24 april 2013
Why do I let you get under my skin?
Like “tick” that buries in and stays there
Last night I laid in bed and stared into the dark
Wondering “was it love?”, then I chuckled No, not by far
Why do I feel like the biggest loser
When you revel in my ineptness
When “you” were the abuser
Your hand never rose yet I felt your slap
Leaving scars on my heart
Your words…Oh how they struck
Maybe it’s because you made me feel
Inadequate as a wife and mom
Sometimes you had a heart of steel
Maybe it’s his way of re-assuring his decision
So he can say that divorcing me
Has made him a better person
Or is it his way of making sure
That I continue to pay for the hurt
He feels everyday with regret
** About an Ex-Husband
Karen Degnan Foiles, 7 april 2013
Everyday we get up
And feel stronger everyday
Everyday we get up
Glad to see another day
Some battles we have fought
Just to stay alive
Some battles we have fought
Just to see another day
Some battles we win
Some battles we lose
For reasons unknown
For reasons we choose
We all have our battles
That we must fight
Some harder than others
Some you take in stride
When your heart is full of love
You have the courage to fight
When your heart is full of love
You have everything to fight
Karen Degnan Foiles, 7 april 2013
They lived in a castle
Surrounded by a sea
And a forest of beautiful trees
Everything’s perfect
Everything is grand
The love of her life is holding her hand
Someone she loved was not who she thought
And shattered her dreams, she felt all was lost
She can’t have the life that she once knew
But instead have something that is so untrue
Does she dwell on the past or
What should have been
Does she accept the pain and
Move on thick-skinned
She knows what she wants
But was told not to feel
She looks back and sees
Only a fractured fairytale
Karen Degnan Foiles, 3 april 2013
I knew I just met you
But I’ve known you all my life
That moment I first hugged you
I had felt a spark
That moment I first kissed you
I had no doubts
That moment we held hands
I understood God’s plan
Karen Degnan Foiles, 3 april 2013
We’re older and wiser and
Love each other with all our might
We appreciate each other with respect
This is the best time of our lives
We may not have much time together
Since we met so late in life
But at least we can spend it during
The best time of our lives
We rush home with anticipation
To fall into each other’s arms
And cry happy tears of joy
Just to see each other again
We laugh and we cry, we dare not deny
The love we felt all along inside
A love that was meant to be
We’ve been feeling all this time
We just had to wait for the right time
When forever is never enough time
To spend together the rest of our lives
Dare I say I found Love "Again" ??
Karen Degnan Foiles, 3 april 2013
Each day we wake up
We wish for the strength
To live through another day
Lord please keep me on
The straight and narrow
But do not judge me
When I stumble or falter
I hope and pray that tomorrow
Your love will wash it away
Thru all the denial and dismay
I’ll make it through another day
Because true love does not question
Something that is beyond comprehension
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