John, 15 july 2020
Even though you have the potential
to treat her like a queen
you understand that a king
can not run a kingdom without a queen
you are willing to be a servent
you understand that
you have to follow before you can lead
You know that her mind is so meaningful
your willing to travel the open sea
just to see how beautiful her treasured mind can really be
you feel you are destined to be with her
you whole heartdly feel
your the only one with the keen eye
To see inner beauty
cause that's what beauty really is
You feel you can protect her for harm
never think once about ruining her life
for any gems
there is no
Space
in my
Mind
that I waste
Time
trying to think of way to over
Power
her nor manipulate her
Reality
condemn her
Soul
for a infinity stone
just to show her being with me is inevitable
If you read between these lines
All I hear is selfishness
This part is more of an intervention speech
Less of a poetic flow
Even though you can do all these things
you have never asked the one question
that actually really mattered
where does her
independent as a women fit
what can she do for herself
Does she need someone to control her life is it the fact that she talked about her hurt so many times
that you don't feel confident
that she can't make the right decisions
she can rises
To a more positive life
Does she really need
a Knight in shining armor
to protect her from her own decision
even though you say
you wont manipulate her
but in fact that's just another
Way to manipulation
you come to her with all the answers
flex with all your power
you make her feel
that she does not need to lift a finger
you get her use to that
so when she feels like
she needs to do less she says to herself
"my man handles that."
but in fact
now she puts herself in a boxed cage
you made
you wonder why she yells and complains it's because she feels like a caged bird trying to feel free
queen trying to not feel
the only thing she is good for is
to kiss the feet of a power hungry king
She doesn't need a sex partner
a sugar Daddy
all she need is a friend
all she needs is to know there is someone out here willing to listen to her
struggles
relate to the pain
Help her understand
Their is light at the end
You see
She had a light and wanted to share
But the person she chose to share it with
Choose to horde and steal all her gems
Pillaged her mind and body
Left her in darkness
Unwilling to give her a light to see the end
And all she was left with
Is less fun memories
more of misery
abuse
manipulation
No longer seeing the point of having a man
all she needs is a friend
not a boyfriend
not someone to sell her dreams
Or dangle
hopes she feels is to good to even believe
So just be a friend
not a fairy tail
cause her beliefs about man
has to be rebuilt
Cause her mind is set on being alone
cause that's more safer then being abused by a man.
John, 26 june 2019
(Fear)
You said you didn't want me in your life
me
fear
Before me
you looked in the mirror
Every day unable to see potential clearly
And then one day out of no where the
Mirror split
fell to the floor
glass everywhere
now you see the 24 different personalities and one beast unwilling to leave
I helped you block out
them and other problems
You was a sad gangsta
you cried emotionless tears
Cause pain was something that you couldn't mentally endure
I gave your life a new purpose
Now you can go around claiming that
Your a way better fixer than the person hire by the number one famous blacklister
So Instead of
standing in front of your own problems
I gave you shoes to run away from them Whoopi Goldberg in Sister Act
I gave you the skillz
To help everybody else with their problems
Hiding from you own
I gave you a career
Plus
Without me
You're like Batman
Without the gear
you can't strike your enemies
without fear
(Me)
See I like how you bring up old wounds
Continually trying to hurt me
Leaving my body motionless
Using me like Pinocchio
And your controlling the strings
Putting me on display for all to see
There's always somebody trying to hurt my Pride
I will not let you scar me
I am not your slave
I will not let you Cinderella me
I am not Genie I will not let you cuff me
Even if You could fly to a star
Find the means to find a solid form of Mercury
I will not let you rock me
I will not let you run around and destroy my dreams
this is not Elm Street
But
You're right fear
I been overwhelmed with internal doubts
I feel i been marching through deep muddy waters
Seaking
feeling like every hour I was about to drown
And it's like you lowered the tide
you know my mind is a minefield
One wrong decision one wrong move
My mind would explode into pieces
You took me away from focusing on me
Fear I understand your reasons
I need you
even though i believe your birth place i from that fallin angel
I want to
use you like spike Lee
And try a different angle
So
today I'm rewriting our contract
You will no longer appear unannounced
I will assess the situation and see if you need to come out
You will no longer stop me from expressing my limits
( Fear): But I bet your not ready for rapid fire judgment
(Me)
Why would I care
you help me judge myself every minute
But you forget
Batman didn't need any Gear
To give scarecrow fear
No more moving around willy-nilly
The anxiety you place upon me
Let's use that heightened senses like
Spider-Man
dodge problems but only if necessary
And if you can't follow these Simple Rules
I'm going to treat you like a job without pay
Because I'm only dealing with you voluntarily
I am the king
and my soul is the ring
i controls all my mental thoughts
and my physical movements
I'm taller than two towers
You
been
whispering in my ear with dark demonic powers
Even though you stay in the same room as my
Crown and my throne
Act up this again
I will throw you down some stairs
ship you on a wooden small boat throw you a paddle and you can go... Row han
John, 11 july 2015
I wish i had a spacial someone to lay with not on no freaky fantasy but a calm cool ecstasy without the sexy you see just want to hold her in my arm just like how the ocean is wrapped around a dolphin in the open sea she wraps one of her arm around me and the other one holds the back of my neck lol even tho I want to hold you I love it when a female can match and as she lays her ear on my chest listening to the smooth tempo of my heartbeat and as it slowly puts you to sleep and as your body's warmth put my eyes to ezz I hope she is dreaming of me cause I am dreaming of you
John, 11 july 2015
Maybe that’s why turtles come to shore to see me perform I complement my words not my human form It shocks me when females tell me I’m the type of guy their looking for I was raised with independence Chastised through the fire of forgiveness Then baptized by the devil’s fallen minion that rose up and became one of God’s Lethal weapons Now I write, again and again Becoming more intertwined with my rhymes When I write I am a living prodigy only the worthy can sit eye to eye with me I feel more powerful then the Greek gods in thee odyssey The more I write it’s like the pen I use helps me manifest my words theologically As I fill up my space on this page I’m a different man when I write with the pen Like drama is no threat to me We no longer see eye to eye It’s no longer kin to me I can’t speak for everybody but that’s just me
John, 11 july 2015
I TOOK OFF MY VEST NOW LOOK AT MY CHEST IF SHE WAS USING REAL BULLETS I WOULD HAVE BEEN PUT TO REST WIT 22 HOLE IN MY CHEST I WANT A OPEN CASKET I WANT YOU TO SEE HOW MANY TIMES SHE DONE BLASTED BUT SHE PUT THE GUN IN MY HAND LIKE IM THE ONE TO BLAME LIKE I SET MY OWN HEART TO REVIVE ALL THIS PAIN BUT SCENE THE GUN IS I MY HAND IM THE ONE TO BLAME.
John, 1 february 2015
I wish to stand next to you looking down at a lake while the reflection of the stars and the moon shine upon your face..... Standing next to perfection
John, 1 february 2015
I am like her Jake Ballard to her Olivia Pope
Together we walk in the sun
You wear a white hat and I'll be your white knight
Protect you from every creature that walks in the moonlight
My heart
My love
My soul is bound to you
Even though we have not jump the broom
I am physically and emotionally married to you
If only I had someone to prove this to
John, 1 february 2015
Wish I had a girl to fall asleep in my arms as we both fall asleep im dreaming of you caressing every inch of your body outlining every crevice and every curve kissing your lips slowly and passionately it feels like around us the world has stopped we are the king and queen of Persia and we hold the sands of time but then I wake up and you're still sleep I did not wake you I kiss you on your forehead look to the sky and give GOD a high 5 for sending me perfection in my life then she smiles in her sleep saying my name with I love you at the end
John, 1 february 2015
The moonlight shines thru the window and the curtains the pattern of the curtains reflect upon your half covered body skin I kiss the shadow of the design on your thigh glide my fingertips slowly down your leg hoping not to wake you but its not enough just the touch isn't enough I want to teaste you like sweet fine wine I want to get love drunk off your bodies essence I want to massage you with my lips no fingertips cause when the rain comes I want teaste every rain drop until you stop
John, 18 september 2012
My poetry has taken me far and be on
when i was a kid
i had nobody to look up to
only but God
and my mom is another person who joined the fight
the fight for my freedom
so i can carry on
carry on the legacy
just like how track runners still carry the paton
see when i was 12
i had no self-esteem
My dad made me feel like i needed him to breath
i needed to attend to everyone of his needs
cleaning and sweeping under his feet
like a slave that had no reason for living
but it took me 4 years to realize that
i must attend to my own needs
so i started to write poetry
i felt like I had found the cure to my heart disease
so as i write my life in a poetic rhyme
spittin out my pain
going down memory lane
but see it wasn't clear like seeing a yellow brick road
this was a road that had so much to indoor
for my soul was permannently scarred for life
but i still push on hard throught life
But now i'm done with my self reflection tantrum
see i'm 18 now with my head raised up high
letting you know how to get around
the troubles that the world brings to you guys
and the lies they try to hide
see i realize that the world doesn't surround
just me
it surrounds everybody
for this world got more hatred then a
double stuffed vegetable pot pie
Like the gang banging in the streets
see you don't have to be a thug
for a bullet to go through your lungs
you don't have to be a thug to
get jumped while doing a grocery run
don't you see
we are the next generation
you know deep down in side
you have the burning sensation
plus the key to create
a well stand up nation
so can't you see
we need to put down the gaks
tell that trigger finger and hate level
to relax
so the government can't hold us back
behind their visible wire wall of law
For we are the next generation
we are like Hiroshima ticking time bombs
waiting to go off
all you need to do is
just set your mind right
get your life straight
because poetry
Thats what i serve on my diner plate
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