12 february 2012
Peaceful days painful nights
Its amazing how all the hate i have inside for you just disappears when u smile.Its a shame i can't stay mad at you for longer than five seconds.whenever i see you my heart beats faster,i'm scared,scared you won't accept the changes i've made for you,scared that you'll leave me for someone better but even more scared that you don't feel the same way i do.The blood pulsing through my veins gets me excited,with each step i take i know i am closer to seeing you. my blood boiling out of control. the sight of you nearly kills me the touch of you makes me weak and your kiss steals my heart everytime.The sound of your voice is what keeps me coming back i look into your eyes and see a life,a life we have not yet started but are at the mere beginning.My crazed heart becomes weaker and weaker as i let you take control, the smell of you lingering in the air is my guide i know i will be okay but your actions tell me otherwise.the warm blood caressing my torso as your cold hands gently slide over my body i feel excruciating pain and see the evil in your eyes i know i am gone. as i watch myself lie there an empty space left where my heart once was i see you, the same evil in your eye holding the one thing that gave me life and watch as the life is being taken from my heart,as my body becomes colder and colder i watch you as the evil in your eyes turns to sorrow you take my once beating heart and try to fix what you've done but theres no fixing it i stare as my lifeless body oh so limp lies there and you lie in a corner throat slashed scalpel in hand and i realize i am now at peace.