steve, 19 june 2015
Its safe to say.. you'll never know, just what I feel inside...
You'll never know the lonely nights.. or see the tears I've cried,
And you'll never have to wonder.. why you feel this way...
Or hide the shame of who you are.. for fear they'll know your gay,
You'll never have to live a lie.. or pretend your what, your not...
But you'll always hear the reasons why.. they deserved just what they got,
You'll never have to just pretend.. how happy that you are...
While the only place you feel at ease... is some seedy down town bar,
You'll never have hear the words.. " a choice, that you have made"...
While making death a cheaper price.. than what we have to pay,
Things you take for granted.. are things I'll never know...
With so much hate for those like me.... were not allowed to go,
I'll never have "that special day" .. to proclaim my love out loud...
And no one will ever call me "Dad".. or want to make me proud,
I'm not afforded all the rights... that you enjoy each day...
And there are places.. you don't dare.. to let them know your gay,
If hate and fear are nurtured... just how can we progress?
As children take there lives each day.. for what they can't confess,
And how many lives must be lost.. before the world will see...
Your born with the heart you carry.. its not what you chose to be,
Open your eyes, I'm your brother.. your sister.. a friend that you knew...
Let go of the hate and the anger.. and what you'll see looking back is you.
sg
steve, 6 june 2015
If somehow there was more for us.. more than just a friend...
And I didn't have to hide it all.. from "whispers in the wind"
If somehow all the tears I've cried.. could wash away the pain...
And I could hold your hand in mine.. I wouldn't mind the rain,
If somehow I could change it all.. I'd make you love me too...
And it wouldn't be just in my dreams... I'm spending time with you,
If somehow you could see inside.. the person that I am...
It might be more than just a glance.. you might just "give a dam",
If somehow I could stop the pain.. this broken heart will feel...
Knowing you will never care.. and that I alway's will,
If somehow I could end it all.. I might just say goodbye...
I'm so damed tired of lonely.. and asking myself.. why.
sg
steve, 17 march 2015
2:00 oclock in the morning.. as she "cried without a sound"...
Three days after Christmas.. in a sleepy southern town,
The year was 1956.. and Chevy's ruled the road...
When I was born.. Momma's tears was the only pain she showed,
The second born of seven.. while five stood in the wings...
Waiting for a chance at life.. and all the pain it brings,
I've watched her do our laundry.. on a washboard in the cold...
And even though her hands were blue.. her heart was made of gold,
Raising seven children.. alone and somewhere new..
I wonder where she got the strength.. to do the thing's she'd do,
She taught us to be strong and just.. and pray to "God" above...
And I knew if I lost everything.. I'd never loose her love,
We never had much money.. and there was no "silver spoon"...
We were blessed with so much more.. my Mom hung the moon.
sg
steve, 1 march 2014
They say that I'm a dreamer.. and I'd have to say its true...
Its just that when I sleep.. all I dream about is you,
I've tried to back away from you.. I've tried to clear my head...
But life without you.. feels as though I'm hanging by a thread,
I don't know.. just what it is.. that I'm supposed to do...
I can't stop the sunrise.. or "what I feel for you",
I can't make you understand.. " I have no control"...
Or look beyond what you see.. into the window of my soul,
And I can't show, my love for you.. that swell's inside my heart...
Is the very love, I can't control.. thats tearing me apart,
If I had.. just one wish.. I would have you close your eyes...
So that you could see and feel .. the truth beyond the lies,
To lay my hands upon you.. as your heartbeats next to mine...
To stare into those deep blue eyes.. that always seem to shine,
To bring a dream to life.. to make a wish come true...
To hold my heart.. in your hands.. because you wanted too,
Just one chance to show you.. the dreams that haunt my sleep...
Just one chance to know you.. and love that I can't keep.
sg
steve, 23 december 2013
It lies in wait.. a dormant beast...
residing where there's none...
In the hills.. and caves of dark...
where rocks are weighed in tons,
Waiting for the blood-red moon...
when slumber is no more...
It rises from the darkest depths...
and steps out of ancient lore,
You strain your eyes to see it...
through the shadows of the trees...
But you know that something lies in wait...
you can smell it in the breeze,
The crackling of a breaking branch...
the rustling in the brush...
Your heart pounds like thunder...
and your blood begins to rush,
You turn to see those big red eyes...
as they are set on you...
And the distant echo's of your screams...
too late for legends true,
It roams the hills on moonless nights...
in search of scattered souls...
A thousand years.. it hasn't changed...
and no one knows the toll,
Legends warn.. of thee beware...
what lies beyond the road...
The Beast of Agua Fria lives...
where blood-red river's flow.
steve, 15 december 2013
It's way past time to say goodbye...
for decisions you have made...
You treat love... like its a game...
and think people should be played,
So let me tell you how I feel...
and say goodbye to you...
I never thought I'd say the words...
much less believe its true,
You don't love me anymore...
the way a lover should...
And I can't stand... three rows back...
and play like its all good,
This heart will always love you...
and I wish you the best...
And pray that "God" watch over you...
and hope your life is blessed,
I hope you find.. what I call truth...
before the truth finds you ...
The things I've learned about you lately...
I wish I never knew,
You've changed so fast.. and so much...
I don't know who you are...
And the distance now between us...
has never been so far,
If this is who you really are...
you hid it well from me...
But now the truth has come to light...
and the truth has set me free.
steve, 15 december 2013
There's not much you can say..
when your heart is on the line...
Everything you say or do..
can hurt you everytime,
Knowone really seems to know..
just what you feel inside...
And knowone really cares about..
just how much you've cried,
So I try to grab a moment..
when a moment comes along...
Because I believe whats from the heart..
could never be that wrong,
A moment passes quickly..
but the memory's there to stay...
Its all I have to hold onto..
that gets me through the day,
So please don't think.. I'd ever want..
something you can't give...
I'm just grabing at a "moment" ..
from this lonely life I live,
sg
steve, 15 december 2013
"Dream"
Do you know how hard.. it is to say...
that I'm in love with you...
When I know you'll never feel the same...
no matter what I do,
To know that you will never care...
to never feel your touch...
Is almost more than I can bear...
when truth becomes too much,
It's not as if I didn't know...
what I'd stepped into...
It was more about just knowing...
what's inside of you,
For that, I don't regret...
this pain that wounds my heart...
If we didn't love each other...
this world would come apart,
I know the dreams within my heart...
I'll never realize...
But it takes me to a distant place...
when I look into your eyes,
And though my heart is broken...
it's not always as it seems...
We will always be together...
when I close my eyes and dream.
steve, 27 december 2012
I gently take you by the hand..
but only in my dreams,
And lay you down upon my bed..
beyond the moonlight beams...
Just one look from those blue eye's..
and I've lost all control...
And everything I thought I knew..
I never knew at all,
I've laid by you a thousand times..
but only in my dreams...
For in that world.. you are mine..
beyond the moonlight beams,
I've tried to tell you how I feel..
and I've tried to make you care....
But you can't make someone feel..
when the feeling isn't there,
You tell me that you love me..
but only in my dreams...
In that world our love is strong..
beyond the moonlight beams,
I know I'll never hear the words..
or ever feel your touch...
But I have but just to fall asleep..
and you love me just as much,
I lay my head upon your chest..
but only in my dreams...
And in the darkness.. we are one..
beyond the moonlight beams,
I've cried myself to sleep..
after dreams I've had of you...
And then cried harder still..
when I had to face the truth,
I've held you close against my heart..
but only in my dreams...
And we've made love a thousand times..
beyond the moonlight beams,
When I look into those deep blue eye's..
it takes my breath away...
And this whole dam world could dissapear..
if only you would stay,
You gave to me your heart and soul..
though only in my dreams...
But Its ..happy ever after...
beyond the moonlight beams.
sg
steve, 11 november 2012
Should I tell you what it does to me..
to get too close to you...
And lose control of everything..
I've tried to hold onto,
Should I tell you how I really feel..
though you don't feel the same?
Or play like there's no pain at all..
and to me its just a game,
Should I turn away, when you look at me..
and say its all been lies...
Because there's nothing that I wouldn't do..
when I look into blue eyes,
Do I hide the fact that I'm in love..
and never let you see...
That everything you are..
means everything to me,
Do I talk about the sleepless nights..
or that I dream of you...
Or do keep it all inside..
the way I always do,
I can't let you see the pain..
and I won't let you know...
A heart in love.. all alone..
has no place to go,
Should I tell you what you mean to me..
as the chips fall where they may...
Or take this broken heart and run..
far .. far .. away.
sg
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