steve, 16 october 2023
Is it ignorance.. or denial.. that just won't let you see...
The reason pain and anger.. still dwells inside of me,
All the nights you left me.. to sit there by the phone...
All the nights I cried aloud.. and waited all alone,
All the pain you put me through..and all the lies you told...
And all I ever wanted.. was to have you there to hold,
Its as though you don't remember.. like.. you don't have a clue...
Of the sacrifaces that were made.. out love I had for you,
You've never done a single thing.. to prove your love to me...
And everything I've done for you.. you pretend you didn't see,
And yet somehow.. I'm to blame.. according to your lies...
Why place blame on anyone.. when its time to cut the ties,
I just wish I hadn't wasted, all those years on you....
But it's my fault for believing, that "fairy tales" come true.
steve, 25 july 2023
I can't make you look at me, the way I look at you...
And I can't show you what I feel unless you want me to,
I didn't want to love you, but my heart got in the way...
Wanting to believe there's a chance that you might stay,
You think it's only physical, but I've so much more inside...
It breaks my heart to know, there's no crossing that divide,
I believed in happy endings, fairy tales, and dreams...
But life is hard, love is pain, and nothing as it seems,
I don't know what to say, that I haven't said before...
I've cried a river of tears, to be washed up on the shore,
I need you in my life, but I have to say goodbye...
My heart needs time to heal, but won't if I don't try,
Sometimes goodbye"s the only way, when there's nothing left to do...
Goodbye would be so easy if I weren't in love with you.
steve, 9 july 2023
I just want to touch you, as your heart beats next to mine...
And breathe in your aroma, which smells like Forrest pine,
I don't want to care about, all the pain I feel...
And though I fell in love with you, I know you never will,
I don't want to know the love, that I will live without...
For heavy is the burden, when you have a heart devout,
I wish I'd never met you, then love would pass me by...
I'd have no broken heart, nor these tears that I cry,
I wouldn't cry myself to sleep, I wouldn't say your name...
Through tears I wouldn't to ask myself, why you don't feel the same,
I wouldn't need to see you or care that you don't care...
You wouldn't haunt my dreams at night, with desires I can't bare,
If only letting go of you, was an easy thing to do...
Goodbye would be so easy if I weren't in love with you.
steve, 5 may 2023
I've made every mistake, that one possibly could...
Every bad decision, instead of what I should,
My life is about regrets, and things I didn't say...
If I could "do it all again", it wouldn't be this way,
Many years have passed, since you left this town...
And countless beers I've put away, to keep you're memory down,
But I still drive by you're old house, to see if you are there...
I haven't met a person yet, with you I could compare,
I should have told you how I felt, so many years ago...
And never let you walk away, from things you didn't know,
But you will never know of, the love I feel for you...
And I could never forget, you're eyes of sapphire blue,
I don't know why I held back, or let you walk away...
I only know it's one regret, that I feel everyday,
If only I could turn back time, there's one thing I won't do...
For I would change everything, except my love for you.
steve, 9 february 2023
You say that I don't give, the kind of love you need...
I say to have a forest, you first must plant a seed,
It isn't that there isn't love, it's not like I don't care...
It's just the things that matter most, are things that we don't share,
I don't need to tell you, again the way I feel...
For if you cannot hear me, these wounds will never heal,
There's not a day that passes, that your not in my heart...
And not a day that passes, that we don't tear apart,
I've heard it's just a fine line, between what's love and hate...
But the clock for us is ticking, and "time won't stop" to wait,
I wonder if things were different how happy we could be...
If we break the chains of anger, and set our spirits free,
As long as we hold to pain, these chains will hold us down...
And we'll look back at what was lost and love we never found,
I don't know if you hear me, or if were too far gone...
But I'm out here on this ledge alone, for us I'm holding on.
steve, 18 january 2023
I'm sorry for what I said.. that turned your heart to stone...
But the love that drew me close to you.. is what I've never known,
I never meant to push you.. or turn your heart away...
I thought the strength I felt in you.. might help me find my way,
I don't know what I've done.. but the rain keeps pouring down...
As this broken heart cries out for love.. that's nowhere to be found,
I'm sorry for the friendship.. that I never got to hold...
Or the truth that's in my heart... I should have never told,
For the shoulder, I can't cry on.. for whatever I did wrong...
Forgive a broken man.. who's been lonely for too long.
steve, 18 january 2023
If you can't feel my love, above anything you've known...
After everything I've done and everything I've shown,
If you can't hear the words, that I speak to only you...
And know there from my heart, and every word is true,
If you can't see a time, that has peeled away the years...
Knowing time is running out, as are all my tears,
If you can't give to me, the only chance I need...
As you cut me with your words, and I just stand and bleed,
If you'd rather have the fantasies, that live inside your head...
Instead of flesh and blood, that can take your heart to bed,
If you let me walk away because you say that you don't care...
Then you're doing me a favor, because you were "never there".
steve, 18 january 2023
I've run "out of words" to say to you... but don't want to say goodbye...
Or let go of the dreams I've held... believing we could fly,
But one believing is not enough.. for love must be two...
No matter how hard the truth is to face... I'll never wake up with you,
I've carried this torch for so long.. my world beginning to burn...
As flames blow up all around me.. my life I cannot discern,
It's as though I'm under a spell.. and can focus no farther than you...
And try as I might to break down your walls... I've yet to ever get threw,
I don't know how long I can hold on... I don't know if you'll ever see...
I think I should throw my dreams to the wind.. and hope it sets my heart free.
steve, 18 january 2023
When at last we are accustomed.. to shoulder what we load...
Life will put a curve.. on a straight and narrow road...
No matter what the obstacle.. that's placed in front of you...
You rise to the challenge.. and what you have to do,
It's a trait that I admire.. it shows how strong you are...
It makes me proud to know you.. and how you've come so far,
The strength you have within you.. that others clearly see...
Was "something that you gave".. and made a better man of me,
It's a reason I was drawn to you... like the moth is to a flame...
It wasn't just your beauty.. this heart had longed to tame,
Your spirit is so complex ... with sides that you've kept stowed...
Or a stallion that runs free.. no man has ever rode,
I look up when I see you... what you gave to me is real...
Strength, love, and hope.. are the things you make me feel.
steve, 18 january 2023
I know we've had our share, of arguments and fights...
But I just want to lay with you, and turn out all the lights,
I want to put the past, behind where it belongs...
And make up for the things, we have both done wrong,
I want to put you first, and be here every night...
And when you've had a hard day, I want to make it right,
To show you that I love you, and just how much I care...
For you will never be alone, I am always there,
There's no one that I need, I need only you...
And I'm hoping that you feel the same way that I do,
I'll do anything for you, anytime, anywhere...
You don't have to ask, you just have to care,
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