steve, 9 june 2022
I wish I'd never met you, then my heart would still be mine...
And I wouldn't cry myself to sleep, pretending everything is fine,
I wish I'd never talked to you, or even heard your name...
It hurts so much when you're not here, I'll never be the same,
I wish that I could turn back time, to the day before we met...
So I could turn and run as far away as I could get,
I wish that you could feel, the pain that I must bear...
Only then could you understand, just how much I care,
But it really doesn't matter, that I'm in love with you...
One plus love equals pain, for love, there must be two,
Nothing that I've ever done, and nothing I can do...
Will ever make you care for me, the way that "I love you".
steve, 28 april 2022
I sit here on a stary night.. but my thoughts belong to you...
I wish upon a falling star.. in hopes it will come true,
The nights keep getting longer.. and days just come and go...
And I can't help but wonder.. about the love I used to know,
I had hopes and dreams, and plans.. to build my life with you...
And I used to think you felt the same.. but I don't think you do,
I thought our love was strong enough.. to weather any storm...
I used to feel your passion burn.. now its barely warm,
I used to feel the love.. when you told me that you care...
But now I can't remember.. the last good time we shared,
I miss your hands upon me... I long to feel your touch...
I don't think they'll ever be.. someone I love as much,
There goes yet another star.. as it streaks across the sky...
And here goes yet another wish.. that we don't say goodbye,
So I wish upon this falling star.. that the love we had is true...
And may it bring you home to me, with love that we once knew.
steve, 28 april 2022
Do you know how hard it is for me.. to know that you are there?
Do you know how many tears I've cried.. to hide how much I care,
I sit here thinking about you.. as the tears roll down my face...
All alone again tonight.. I just wanna get out of this place,
I want to run into your arms.. and hold you all night long...
I want to kiss .. and say "I Love You" .. I don't care whats right or wrong,
I need you to feel whats in my heart.. things I'm afraid to say...
I want you to care when were apart.. and tell me your gonna stay,
It may not last.. people change.. and life's not carved in stone...
But any chance.. beats no chance.. when lonely's all you've known,
What's to loose.. but your heart.. for mines already gone...
It belong's to you.. and always has.. from dusk to breaking dawn.
steve, 28 april 2022
I can't live without you.. I don't even want to try...
All I do is sit around.. asking myself why,
Why did you stop loving me..and why it hurts so bad...
If I'd done the things I didn't do.. would you be here if I had,
My mind just keeps on racing... and my heart just pounds away ...
And time is running out.. for the things I need to say,
I feel as though I'm spinning.. and there's nothing I can do...
But I need to tell you.. just how much.. that I'm in love with you,
I'm sorry for all the things.. I've done to let you down...
I should have been a better man.. than the one you found,
I'm sorry if I hurt you.. and if I wasn't there...
But there was not a moment past.. for you I didn't care,
No matter what the future holds.. and if it didn't show...
There's nothing I loved more than you... "I wanted you to know."
steve, 28 april 2022
What is it about you.. that draws me close to you...
That keeps you in my thoughts.. no matter what I do,
That won't let me forget.. what it was we shared...
That won't let me forget.. you never really cared,
Why is it that my heart breaks.. each time I hear your name...
And nothing in my life.. without you is the same,
The seasons of my life.. have brought the autumn leaves...
Still, every time you touch me.. I can barely breath,
"What keeps me holding on".. to dreams just out of reach...
Or won't let me stop pounding.. on walls I'll never breach,
Why can't I just let go.. and watch you walk away...
For nothing in my world.. could ever make you stay,
Why is "love" the one thing.. that no one can control...
And still the only thing.. that makes a person whole,
Why can't my heart accept.. "the truth, of reasons why"...
And learn to let go of the pain.. each time I say goodbye.
steve, 22 october 2021
How do I tell my heart, never to love again...
To let go of my dreams, to never touch your skin,
To never breath you're fragrance, you're intoxicating scent...
That renders me a slave, to whatever you're intent,
How do I tell my mind, that you're no good for me...
Pain is not the answer, because we disagree,
How do I let go, of the reason my heartbeats...
As my every waking thoughts, are of you beneath my sheets,
Why should I even care, when you don't care at all...
As once again this broken heart, takes another fall.
To never see you again, to turn and walk away...
To know the words we speak, are the last we'll ever say,
steve, 27 january 2021
You will "never" feel the same...
It pierced my heart.. with deadly aim,
I guess there's nothing I can do...
That will ever get me close to you,
My heart screams out... in silent pain...
Alone again... in the rain,
Knowone hears me... no one cares...
And only "God", can hear my prayers,
Right or wrong... what I feel...
This broken heart... will never heal,
A hallow soul... now dwells in me...
Crying out... to be set free,
But I am shackled... to what I feel...
My heart is hostage... my fate is sealed,
Love will "never"... know my name...
For you will "never" feel the same.
steve, 6 november 2020
It cuts just like a knife, every time I hear your name...
And I feel the blood just drain away, as we start to play the game,
You're never going to give me, the part of you I need...
And I'm never going to let you know, just how much I bleed,
The tears rain down inside my head, and I am washed away...
As this heart is broken once again, by things I couldn't say,
I tried to hide this "burning flame", but I got too close to you...
Now my world is burning down, and there's nothing I can do,
Even tears can't douse the flames, as I begin to burn...
And the pain that only lonely brings, is far too strong to turn,
My heart's desire in front of me... and yet a world away...
But I'd give this life to feel your love, if only for a day.
steve, 6 november 2020
Trapped inside myself, there's no place I can hide,
No escape, no salvation, only years of tears I've cried,
You don't know what it does to me, when you come into view...
How it tears me up inside, because I'm in love with you,
Knowing you will never care, or ever touch my skin...
Or ever really get to know, the person that I am,
Trapped and all alone, bottled up for years...
She'll never have her freedom... but she can have her tears,
No one even knows... that she lives at all...
The chains that hold her down, keep her shackled to her walls,
She'll never see the light of day, she'll never be set free...
Though she loves, she'll not be loved, such is destiny.
steve, 6 november 2020
I can't hear your tortured thoughts, or see what you've been through...
But I can feel your pain from here, through miles of missing you,
I'm sorry if I made you think, somehow I didn't care...
I never meant to bring to you, feelings of despair,
I care so much from my heart, it swells the fear in me...
I'll ask myself "What am I doing?" I clearly cannot see,
I have no right to put on you, what I think I need...
No matter how much pain I feel, no matter what I bleed,
A world away what do I have, that could ever make you see...
All I have to offer you, is all I have of me,
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