Xenita Joy Dublas, 4 august 2012
Got a chance to fall in love,
But never had the chance to be loved.
GOD knows how much we tried,
Just to be on each others side.
This love I feel for you from apart,
Is true and real from heart.
I'm happy cause I have you,
without thinking could this all be true
In this long distance love,
we never have to wonder
that some lovers didn't end-up together.
This distract our mind and heart,
from thinking what our loved ones doing from a far.
Doubt is our most enemy,
and never had the power to evade this reality.
In this love you can never fight,
But only to his words you can hold tight.
I may not have the assurance that you'll forever hold my hand,
But I'll never stop hoping that someday for me you'll stand.
Xenita Joy Dublas, 27 june 2012
Why can't it be?
Were destined to love each other,
yet we cant be together.
I love you, You love me,
but to show has the question on HOW?
Why is the world so against,
yet on our love we give all our best.
To apart us no one can set,
cause all the odd to us we bet.
In GOD's time,
I know you will be with me,
In the right place,
Where all we should be.
Xenita Joy Dublas, 27 june 2012
Sorry if it took me this long to let you go,
Sorry for letting this love for you grow.
Sorry if I let everybody know how much I love you,
Im just proud for I once have you.
My heart is fighting for its right,
but I know it can't be us even if i fight.
Why do I have to fight for a love
that i know would never last?
That I can't bring back all the love
you have for me in the past.
Is this your way of leaving?
Or this is you way of saying,
'You found someone new'?
Im tired of loving,
Loving someone and end-up crying.
My heart feel its hopelessness for having you,
Im sorry for loving you!
Xenita Joy Dublas, 27 june 2012
Seeing you beside me,
Is staying in a place where I wanted to be.
But I know its just a dream that im having,
a dream that keeps on destructing my mind when I was sleeping.
I used to cry,
when I remember how I said 'IM OKAY'
while tears are falling from my eye.
I didn't repent that I've loved you,
though in such you let go.
Now im trying not to do,
those things that can reminds me of you.
But how could I avoid those things,
that once made me happy because of you.
Everytime im writing a poem,
you exist in my mind.
am i doing a right step in moving on?
or im just crucifying myself by holding on?
all the things that I do,
only reminds me of you.
Xenita Joy Dublas, 27 june 2012
Sorry for being selfish,
You love me is how i wish.
I never thought that this feeling for you would come,
Now my heart is facing this another challenge.
I dont know why i feel this way,
Im begging you come in my heart and please stay.
I know its wrong, cause someone is onwning you,
But what is right, is my love for you.
The man in my sight,
is the man in my life.
Those time i confess my feelings for you,
I feel like your proposing & im just saying ' I DO! '.
But i thought so wrong i feel like your my run-away GROOM: '(
Now my heart is breaking,
My eyes are crying,
My mind is aching.
Thinking how would be my tomorrow,
After this sorrow.
I feel like no one care for me,
I was alone crying in the sea.
When would this heart stop beating?
When would be the end of this suffering?
Tell me should i deserve to be happy?
Or should i accept the fact that no one can love me,
The way i wanted to be?
Xenita Joy Dublas, 27 june 2012
Im begging you,
Please love me too.
Tell me what you want me to be,
Just for you to love me.
If loving you is a mortal sin,
Then there is nothing i can do its from within.
I love you so,
And i wouldn't let you go.
Why did you choose to love someone,
Who is inlove with another man? .
Why dont you love me? ,
For we can be happy.
Open your heart not just with her,
But also with me who is in suffer.
Xenita Joy Dublas, 2 april 2012
Im so sick of hiding this relationship anymore,
I know you cant leave her cause you love her more.
Its better to evade this love I feel for you,
Cause i know this love for you would hurt me so.
But you know how much you mean to me,
I dont know if I can make it if you leave me.
I dont know why I still choose to love you,
Yet I know there’s a girl who owns you.
My efforts are nothing,
Cause for you she’s everything.
I know where to put myself unto you,
That you wouldnt look at me when she’s with you.
The hurt i cant bear,
The day you said you love me but you cant leave her.
Xenita Joy Dublas, 26 january 2012
If the thing that can break my heart,
is the thing that can make you alright.
Then im ready to suffer,
for I want to see your laughter.
Now im standing in a fact,
that you can never love me back.
Your love for me is just for friend,
but my love for you would never end.
I hope someday someone will come,
and appreciate how precious I am.
But I know when that time come,
its not me whom I used to be.
How I dream that I can see you turning back,
and would wipe these tears in my eyes I have.
These smiles pretend to be the mask of my heart,
my tears are the reflection of my drearly heart.
Now you know that my smikes means that im lying,
but my heart can't deny that its breaking.
I wrote this letter not to make you feel pity,
but all I want is to prove my sincerity.
Hoping that someday,
were meant to be.
Xenita Joy Dublas, 26 january 2012
I am so amaze,
to GOD's grace.
I ask for a simple thing,
but he gave me you, more than everything.
Im so blessed to love you,
so blessed that you love me too.
You made me fall in love again,
you heal my heart that is broken.
You made me happy,
thou your not with me.
I feel like im dreaming,
cause it's you im kissing.
Considering me as the love of your life,
IS getting out of the dark and seeing the light
I want you to be forever mine,
cause having you is one in a life time.
I hope that we'll be together,
till now and forever.
Xenita Joy Dublas, 26 january 2012
I love you,
this feeling for you I first new.
I didn't expect that I would fall inlove again,
after all the hurt I felt by then.
You teach me how to love,
and your the best man I'd ever have.
You light-up my darkest part,
now im happy having you in my heart.
You make me believe,
that your love for me wouldn't leave.
I am so inlove with you,
that I am afraid to loose you.
My undying love for you,
would remain in my heart true.
You love me is how I dream you used to be,
cause loving you is all that means to me.
Forever I want to love you,
and I'll still be here waiting for you.
Cause I want to spend the rest of my life with you,
my whole life of loving you.
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