Poezja

The Apology

Why are you all the time
Always on my mind
I thought I was through with you
But the memory remains
Everything you did will stain me
Until I cut the line
It compels me to say
Things I didn't mean to say
It hurt you but backfired on me
Now I'm begging you to forgive
Me for whatever I did
But I think I need the apology 


It Had To Come To This

Exerting all my love to you in due will
For what I thought was forever
Couldn't resist the way you made me feel
Your sex appealled
Making soft sweet love to you in vane erased my will
I thought our love was stronger and was still up until
The day you made my love for you go
My dreams had shattered like a smashed window
You left me with how the hell was I supposed to know
But it just had to come to this
As I punch the dry wall with an open fist
Everytime I second guess
I ask myself what I failed to do best
My lust for your love still and always will be undone
Can't get enough of the way you strut your stuff
It turns me on
We made love upon our wicked skies as full moon shined
We made love as your skin rubbed against mine your 
Love was divine
To me you were every thing I ever needed
Why did you leave
You know I've never cheated
I still don't know why you had to hit the road instead
But it just had to come to this
As I punch the dry wall with an open fist
Everytime I second guess
I ask myself what I failed to do best
If I would have only known
The answer to your simple requests
I'd be in bed with you right now
It would all have been layed to rest
Exerting all my love to you in due will
For what I thought was real
Couldn't resist the way you made me feel
Your sex appealled
Making soft sweet love to you in vane erased my will
I thought our love was stronger and was still
Up until
So just before we make are part ways
There's just one thing that I've got to say
Baby I'll miss making love to you anyways
But it had to come to this 


Bleeding Inside

I don’t comprehend
How you can swallow your pride
It takes all of ones strength
Just to make the violence disengage
But the pain
It never gets erased
Bleeding inside
Death is what first comes to my mind
Gushing pain out within
Bleeding inside
Life keeps stabbing at my timeline
I need my time to end
God would you relinquish all my sins
Daily life
Stabs me in my face
My off days
Are depressed and phased
Fucked out of what I’ve made of myself
My life’s a dark fade 


Let Go of the Past

I feel like dumping her right now
Knowing she'll come back around
But she beats me to the chase
I always make-up with my vows
To tell her face to face
Text messages aren’t the same
As looking at her while telling her in her face
Baby I need you
You’re all that I’ve wanted
I know you’ve heard this so many times
But I still mean it and I’m sorry this time
So can we make love
Let go of the past
Sympathy always follows through
It’s hard to believe that we always fall right back through
This endless circle of love
'Cause in the end she’s all I dream of
Which makes me realize that
Nothing will ever compare to that kind of love
The same love that we always share
Is the kind of love that will last forever
Let go and don't worry
'Bout a single thing
I'll stay true to you
You won't suspect a thing
Let’s let go and make up
Oh let go
Oh oh let go 


Give It In To Me

You know that I'm still breathing
You know I've got something to say
But you still cut me off anyway
All the lying
I never know what you're up to
The drama you always put me through
Don't sit in lies
Be honest to me
Dish out the truth
Give it in to me
Give it in so I can see
The type of person that you are to me
Now that everything is out of the closet and placed down on the floor
I feel my inner demon urging me to kick you out the door
I can't trust you
It's hard to make up
Ironically we've already been through this same type of shit before
We've been through this so many times that I sound like a broken record to you
Your actions reflect back on me because I happen to be everything you do
I'm fed up with this
It has to be solved
All I can do now is just pray to god that this will somehow end
So give in to me
Open yourself
Let me come in
Give me a sign
Throw me a key
To unlock all of your misery
So give in to me
Show me how faithful you can be
'Cause I need to know if you're the right person for me
To spent the rest of my life with day by day 


For the First Night

I met you for the first night
And it already feels like
This could go on forever
With you as my lover
I get lost in your sapphire eyes
You're beautiful and I can't deny
From the moment you came into my life
I've thought about you every day and night
I embraced you in the spotlight
Oh the glare in your eyes
I will never forget that
I know from then no I had to have you
This connection I have towards you
It is too strong to be said
Oh maybe love on the first night
Can be made possible if everything goes right
'Cause on this first night
I feel the energy of the moon through your eyes
Casting upon me tonight
Wait
Slow down for a moments time
Take in this moment you're having with me
I'm falling for you more with every second
That goes by with my time spent
With you I am loving it
I'm caught up in your smile
That is so delightful I wouldn't miss it for the world
That's honestly what I feel for you girl
'Cause for this first night
I embraced you in the spotlight
Oh the glare in your eyes
I will never forget that
I know from then no I had to have you
This connection I have towards you
It is too strong to be said 


Flame of Love

I'm falling into your soul as it unfolds
With beauty and everything as I gaze at you with envy
Whenever your lush eyes stare at me
Fire runs through my body
Engulfing me with thoughts of you
I'd burn away my entire life with you
My heart is for you let me get into your
Mind with mystery as you fall into me
Feel the vibe of this music
Lift you off the ground
'Cause at the end of this song It will
Let you know I'm around
Igniting the flame of love
Igniting the flame of love
Igniting the flame of love
Igniting the flame of love
It runs through my vain
It burns deep in my heart
Like the carving of your lovely name
This memory will remain
Your eyes unfold on my scene
In the mist of things it's just you and me
Even when the flame has ran its coarse
I'll still melt with your inner source
My heart is for you let me get into your
Mind with mystery as you fall into me
Feel the vibe of this music
Lift you off the ground
'Cause at the end of this song It will
Let you know I'm around
Igniting the flame of love
Igniting the flame of love
Igniting the flame of love
Igniting the flame of love
Feel the flame in my heart
Burning with the love I have for you 


Final Day

Casting the way upon wicked skies
Shortening our world as we see
Howling all day as full moon shines
Expanding on how we perceive
Not long before we have to say, as other worlds drift away
The end will peak, then we’ll seek chaos and disappear
There’s no delay for on the final day on which we parish and decay
God declares to end the tree that sprouted out from Adam and Eve
Something stirs for one to believe
Only then God’s wrath will heave 


Exigency

So you have only noticed me
Looking at you in exigency
This moment we share brings me into
leting you know how I feel about you
I can see you all over me
It's like when you start to talk my heart beat beats
Rapidly trying to persue your love
Typically you are what I think of
In the moment It's just you and me
I stare you down and your eyes take me
Through and the darkness into heaven's sky
I care what you're made of deep inside
You reassure me every time you do
This is how I really feel about you
Looking into your precious eyes
Is like you and how I have came to realize
This is how much I feel for you
I wrote this song to express me for you
I hope you don't mind what I've said all this time
It's just when I think of you It clicks and rhymes 
In my mind
I can't stop thinking about you
Can't get you out of my thoughts
I soak you through
Looking into your precious eyes
Is like you and how I have came to realize
This is how much I feel for you
I wrote this song to express me for you
Looking into your eyes
It take a part of me
It sets inside of me
'Till I can feel your body tonight

Looking into your precious eyes
Is like you and how I have came to realize
This is how much I feel for you
I wrote this song to express me for you
Now you get why I stare at you
Don't turn down the love that's been with you
I'm not trying to force you into liking me
I just want you to have somebody like me
That can provide you with unlimited love
God bless whoever wins your love
There's something about you that turns me into 
A hypmotized person that will do anything for you


Everafter

If I could live forever
I'd live my life with you endlessly
I'd be so good to you
The way you'd always wanted me to
But you always have been
So many positive things I can't describe
You're so amazing
I awe at you all the time
Let’s do our best to make this last forever
I think we could both make it work
Just see that me and you were meant to be together
Give me all the love you got
I know I have high standards
I think that this is how love should be forever
So come fly and reach high with me
With you I always dream to be
Ever after
Oh yeah
Ever after
Yeah
With you I'll always be
Ever after
Oh yeah
And ever after
Yeah
Put in all your trust in me and just believe
That I will never get you hurt
Make believe that I'm your night and shining armor
Defending you in the name of love
The only thing that I'm after
I want to live the rest of my life. 


Together Again

What happened before
I was too blind to see
Now I know that
You were all there was to me
So lift up out the floor
Let's relive the those times we lived before
What's the worst thing that can happen
If we both get back together again
What's the worst thing that might happen
If we both try this again
I feel the connection that we all along already had
This love we share now is different from what we use to have
I'll never leave your side 'cause I'll always be where you're at
When we touch there's nothing in the world that compares to that
This time around I'll make you happy
I'll unleash the person want to see inside of me
I'll prove to you how good I can get on my better side
Let me lift you high
I've figured it all out
You're the one for me
I just want you to know with you my heart will always be


Undiscovered Ocean

Flowing out to sea
Hoping to touch shore
I wasn't shaped out to be
Her sandcastle
That she flooded all over
Her tides couldn't concur
So she swept from beneath me
Leaving me with nothing
So I swept out into sea
I now flow so fluently
Yeah
Without her thunder storming me
I forecasted that
If she ever leaves me
I will still breathe
Like before
I couldn’t take anymore
As my heart still beats
It beats on and on
After having overcome
I can still move on
In this undiscovered ocean
Yeah
Love is like a vast ocean
That I keep swimming into
It needs exploration
It flows endless for me
Whether it be a hurricane
With a name to remember
The destruction she caused
Was unbearable for me
And if it’s not its paradise
In this undiscovered ocean


Always Once Did

Living all alone to ourselves
The chemistry is gone
Between me and you
We no longer carry on
With the love that­­­­­­­­­­­ drove us into sweet soft oblivion
When we use to care for each other I always use to say
Baby is there something wrong
But now times are different
Since you've broken off from me
I want you to know that
Your love has worn off on me
And I will never look at you the way I always once did
You're no longer for me to stare at you when I see you 
After all you've put me through
Now that times have gotten different
I've gotten over you
Don't you think for a minute
That I'll fall back again for you
'Cause I've taken that route
Then that's whenI found out
Something that I use to doubt about
When I was sure that you'd come through
And seek my fate 
With a clean slate
But sadly 
I loved you more than you loved me
And for the record
I can sleep late at night knowing that I never did you wrong 


Pieces

I'm not giving up
I'm going to keep trying
I know she's hard to get to
But I'm going to keep fighting 
For her love
The thing that always keeps me alive
And
Seeing her face helps me survive through
Depressing times where I felt like nothing in this world ever mattered
Her presents then lite up my world
I stare at her like no other girl
And when she smiles everything around me seems to shatter
Into pieces
She's made everything around me fall to pieces
Now there's nothing left but her and me
When she's in my path she's all I see
She shines before me with her beauty
I don't see how she single handedly makes me adore her
She puts me in that feeling where I just don't care 
About anything that doesn't relate back to her
And I just can't stop that feeling
Sometimes I wonder if she even cares for me
Is she playing me with cruelty
Will I risk scaring my heart 
For something I can barely tell apart
Will my world fall into pieces
Is she just another whore
'Cause I don't think I can take anymore
Will she break me into pieces
However


Out of This Guilt

The reaper comes to take your soul
In the dark of night
So praise the lord for yours to keep
Or you will soon then die
To relinquish all the sins you reek
Stab them ‘till you bleed
And when all the guilt drains out of your corps
Your soul Satan will keep
The only outlets are these razor blades
Piercing through your lies
You try to conceal all your guilt
Even if you live to die
The reaper gets inside of you
You’ve committed suicide
Now you’re laying dead and have bled out on the floor
The guilt you cannot hide
Your pain is let out
Now Hell is about 
To cast upon your soul
You’re Satan’s slave under your grave
In the pits of Hell you’ll shout
God come down and help me for you have not given me way
(Out of this guilt!) 


Never Let You Go

I've got this fatal attraction toward you
And it's running its coarse through my body
I can't stop thinking about you
Your love has taken over my body
I couldn't live to see you go
I'd keep you in my dreams forever
I would die for you to know
That I would keep you in my heart and never
Ever let you go
I'd never let you go
As I gaze at your eyes that seek right through
All my pain seeps when I melt with you
If you knew the things I thought about you
You'd know for sure that I'm the one for you
I've got this illness I can't cure
It fills my heart when you move close to me
You're all that I will ever adore
If you fall I'll catch you instantly
I couldn't live to see you go
I'd keep you in my dreams forever
I would die for you to know
That I would keep you in my heart and never
Ever let you go
I'd never let you go
Just need for you to know
That I will never
Never
Never
Never let you go 


My Own Two Eyes

I can't take this anymore
You've created a scar that I can't ignore
Step outside of the door
Can't you get that I am done with you for sure
Deep down inside of you
You know that what you did was wrong
Darling you can't deny
I saw It all with my own two eyes
Condemn to what you have done
Don't you act like you don't know what you just did
Hell is what you are running from
To escape you have to confess to your fibbs
Don't you tribute to your doom
All your lies seek through hell to come back to you
You're unable to tell the truth
It's a curse that has taken a part of you
Can't you see I'm healing from a open scar
The hell you put me through was by far
The one thing that I can't forgive you for 


Miscarriage

My love that goes right through you
I hope it does't grow to kill you
'Cause I can't handle you miscarriage
Your hidden miscarriage
I loved you hard with on thud
And the base board of the bed keeps beating these walls
While sliding love into you
The deeper you scream I spew
With the love that spawned our beloved child
We make love you always bleed
With the lies that you conceive
Every time I heave
My love that goes right through you
I hope it does't grow to kill you
'Cause I can't handle you miscarriage
Your hidden miscarriage
Thinking about my child born dead
When it runs though my mind I see red
And the diseased blood that stained my clean white sheets
It still dream of the love of my own child
But I just can't seem to get it through you
'Cause every time I light the flame it dies
But my heart still lies with you
My love that goes right through you
I hope it does't grow to kill you
'Cause I can't handle you miscarriage
Your hidden miscarriage
My love that goes right through you
I hope it does't grow to kill you
'Cause I can't handle you miscarriage
Your hidden miscarriage
I can't set up myself for this
Lets seal it off with a final kiss
'Cause with you their is no chance of a future
But my heart begs to differ
I can't handle this miscarriage
But this is what it has to be
This is the end of you and me 


Living Without Your Love

Didn't think It would be
This much pain that has dwelled inside of me
I wish I was by your side
Waking up to you is what I need in my life
Living without your love
When I'm sitting all alone you're what I think of
Living without your touch
Makes me feel like I will never live like I once did
The days have been getting long
Ever since you walked out of me life
Then you were gone
I can't go on with myself
My heart belongs to only you and nobody else
I need your love in my life
Find yourself to forgive me before I dry
Up like a dessert storm
I need you to soak me with your tropical island form
But that's just another fantasy
I can't stop thinking about you and me
Starting off my day with you taking part in my life 


Damned To An End

Hoping Hell on Earth will end
Day by day breathing this shit in
One day It will all come to an end
Only then I will reborn
In this fucking life I dread having only living only to receive
Remnants that are left over from society
My inputs are further left as foreshadowing skeletal remains
That this era has hopelessly led to destruction
What does God have in mind? 
I search from my own solution
Pray and you will fall under
Normalcy is our extinction
Life as we know it will just end
Let us come to a fucking end! 
I will feast on every fallen angel
My appetite is becoming me
Spreading plague and death to us all
How the fuck did this disease start out
As humanity death drops to Hell
Riots and massacres are all I see sprouting out from the branches of democracy
No sermon can justify all the bullshit that is fictitious
We damn ourselves
We are damned to a fucking end


Fucked Over

You've been molested, processed and left for dead into the wakes of your doom
Abandoned, maimed, and forgotten by decomposition that swallows you whole
Now you come as a spirit that casts upon humans whos minds you'll consume
Causing fucking demonic chaotic matromony into society's wrelm
Now savor the death off your fucking corpse
Cause in this life you have been fucked out of this world


Godamning Sermon

Spawned into shadows forsaken by the one I can’t have my way with
Prophecies programmed into minds of the weak who seek to extricate my mind from my soul
Damning my life for which I breathe in only to be fucked above this ground
For every day I breathe in only to be fucked down into this human lair I claim Hell
This is fucking Hell! 
Up warding this summit skiing form insanity
Up warding this summit just shy of fucking heaven
I’ve reached my climax where sanity is out of reach
Hopelessly I fall short of heaven as Hell casts its demons
The God damning sermon subscribed in my soul runs deeper that the prophecies in which he bestows upon my beseeching 




Left To Fuck And Die

Flames of Hell rising from these graves
Lifting spirits of souls unnamed
Spawns of Satan serving on God's Earth
Blackened spirits damned into Satan's curse
Trickling blood from the Christ of Jesus
Bleeding into the dust of what's left of us
A concoction of destruction will fucking arise
Unleashing all of hell as God watches near by
Leaving what is left of humanity
Left to fuck and die!


Love For Whores

FUCKING HARDCORE
AS I MAKE YOU INTO MY OWN
THY PLEASURE IS TO FUCKING BONE
YOU AS I INTRUDE THROUGH YOUR HOME
YOU’RE FUCKED AND BLOODIED AND ALONE
RAPING YOU COLD
PENETRATING THROUGH WHAT’S VAGINAL
RIPPING YOUR TUSH
CUTTING YOUR FLESH
LEAVING YOU BLOODY AND FUCKING GASHED
FUCKING YOU DEEP
ENOUGH TO BLEED
FUCKING YOU INTERNALLY
VAGINA SLITS
YOUR MOUTH LICKS
ALL OVER MY FUCKING DICK


Mind Of A Sadistic

PERCIEIVE THE MIND OF A SADISTIC BEING
YOU WON'T BELIEVE WHAT THE FUCK I'VE ENVISIONED
DEATHLY HALLOWS CORPSING OVER MY FEELINGS
CAUSING ME TO EXISE MY SLAUGHTER FEST
HAVING THY URGE TO SUBDUE THE REST
MY VICTIMS ENFUEL MY RAGE TO COMMIT VIOLENCE AND ENGAGE IN MALEVOLENT ACTS
CLEANSING ENOUGH TO RECITE THE SCREAMS OF THY MAIMED
I STILL HAVE FAILED TO REACH THE SUMMIT OF SANITY
DESPITE MY FLAWS OF EMPRISIONED INTEGRITY
FURTHERMORE I EXISE MY SAW 
MY NOW WEEP ON THE FLOOR
AS BLOOD WILL OUT POUR OUT THE SHIT I UNCOVER
AS I SPLIT AND MAIM LIMB FROM LIMB
YOU WILL PERISH WITHIN MY RELM
AS SECRETIONS OF BODIES SEEP


Domestic Violating

Put that bitch into submission
Rectify the situation
Backhand her until she gets it
Rip her tamp out when she bleeds
Straight to the floor as blood shuts her mouth up
Falling backwards on fucking eggshells
She is then lifted and suspended from the ground
After being launched she is walked like a dog
I support insubordination
Extrication leads to stable household
If you don't rectify her ass now
You will have your balls zipped into her fucking purse
Never put a cunt above you
Put her ass down
You're the head of the house
Extricate her pad and you will keep shit in bounds
So put her straight through the fucking dry wall
If she thinks she is in control
Watch her tampon crumble
As you put it through the garbage disposal
Then go and beat her ass
'Till she fucking gets it
You are now in control


What's Been Beneath Me?

What's been beneath me
Will I find my inner self or live disbelieved
Is this real reality or is this just a dream
I try to open myself to what others think that's obsolete
For I think there's a possibility other than living defeat
Dear my lord
What's become of me
Tell me what's been beneath me
I can't explain myself being
Is this only dreaming
Will everything disappear before my own eyes
Was my soul long before lived amongst dark skies


Where Is My God Now?

There's a demon side
Within you and I
Holding onto ground
As Hell tries to take us down
Intense suffering
That is setting in
All of mankind
Will be oblivious through Satan
Where is my God now
Somewhere underground
Somewhere under the ashes of Hell
Where is my God now
In the bright of sky
Shinning down upon you and I
If you believe in God
And of his powers as well
Then you believe in Hell
'Cause that's what God repels
For God to overpower Satan
God must learn his ways
God has to be certain
Of what the Devil persuades
Mankind into doing
Tasks of Hell
How would they even know
If Satan is even capable
But somehow his demons slip through the grips of God
Where is my God know
Somewhere underground
Somewhere under the ashes of Hell
Where is my God now
In the bright of sky
Shinning upon you and I
Know of Satan
Know of your God
For you'll  be safe from
The tempting persuasions of Satan


Straight to the Floor

Straight to the floor as I commit ravishing acts
Violence infused with thy urge to copulate you in all positions 
I have forced upon you
I overpower stamina with my disease
Pulverizing prostatic flluid into thy vestibule
This form of intercourse is overpowering
I am menacing toward the opposite genitalia 
I am abusing my innate form of compulsive behavior
Trying to contain the beast in me that leaves you fucked and maimed


Devil's Conscience

There’s something in my mind bickering
My left shoulder beholds a demon intervening
The screeching has taken out my hearing
God help me with what I’m enduring
There’s something in my mind ringing
Can’t make out the sound that I’m receiving
The devil has swallowed my well being
God help me with what I’m enduring
My soul is loaned but I keep on living
My mind is skewed from all the wrong doing
Making out Gods words that I’m not hearing
God help me with what I’m enduring


Clinching Suicide

I can’t help myself
Clinching on this gun handle
Think I’m going to kill myself
Looking down this gun barrel
There’s nothing left for me
Dig a damn hole for my burial
My girl just left me
But she’ll meet me at my funeral
God take me away
Smite me with your miracles
But if I go down
Caged up in a flame circle
Satan throws me down
No way out of this hell hole
Killing myself with all this pain and sorrow
I’ll be gone today, be in hell tomorrow
I live with no fate
My life is dark and hollow
But what motivates
My perspective follow
Is the pain that reeks from my head to my toes
Only god knows
Cause I’m about to commit a suicide
Already made my mind
Its either kill you or kill me in despite
You’ve taken what it takes
To make my heart ache
Now I no longer have to live with heart ache


The Diseased

Prostrated by the God that forbids me
Unfortunately I have lived to be overcame
Enraged by the dreams that vacillate me
Into a nefarious being set out by Satan
Now I can proceed through my foretelling
Of this ubiquitous disease that I am cleansing
I am cognizant of this dissipated infection
Of the diseased 



Blend Into A Worthless Soul

If my voice were slashed
And my hands were torched
In an open fire
Death would be my desire
'Cause then I would be a mortal
I would live with stress
I would shoot cocain
There'd be no way I could rest
As a normal man
I would blend into a worthless soul
Like the soul of a whore
I would be unable to accomplish anything anymore
Through the life of a worthless soul
I would be closed minded
I'd be constantly commanded by what I should have conquered