steve, 18 grudnia 2018
I remember when we met.. and right out of the gate...
Before you even said a word, my heart was thinking fate,
I've loved you from that moment, with my heart I love you still...
But I can't make you care for me, I know you never will,
Dreams are all that I have left, to make it through the night...
I sometimes wish we'd never met, so my heart would be alright,
I'd like to put a happy spin, on what I'm trying to say...
But the tears running down my face, keep getting in the way,
Goodbye would be so easy if I weren't in love with you...
To walk away and not look back.. is something I can't do,
Though my love for you is real.. I must hide it far away...
Never to be heard again... nor see the light of day,
If this is what you wish "from me".. your wish is my command...
And everything I'm saying now.. "to you" is my last stand,
I look into your steel blue eyes.. for any change of heart...
But I know exactly where I stand.. and I've known it from the start,
You know how much I love you.. you know I'll always care...
So if you need me... turn around.. for I'm already there.
sg
steve, 18 grudnia 2018
I wanted only to love you.. as this heart already does..
While I cry myself to sleep.. for things that "never was",
He "never was" in love with you.. he "never was" too blame..
You can't make someone love.. if they don't feel the same,
It "never was" the right time.. as time plays tricks on you..
Yesterday I was twenty one.. today I'm fifty two,
Life was never fair.. and the road was long and hard..
I've had to fight for everything.. and its left me bruised and scarred,
There "never was" a reason.. as to why you shied away..
And there "never was" a time.. that I wished you wouldn't stay,
There "never was" someone.. that I loved more than you..
But you never felt the same.. and that "never was" more true,
Now the years have flown away.. as love eluded me..
Though I searched for many years.. it "never was" to be.
sg
steve, 18 grudnia 2018
There's nothing "I could say".. that would change a single thing...
I can't make you fall in love.. and I'm not one to cling,
I could tell you what you mean to me... when I look into your eyes...
Or push it even farther down... behind a masked disguise,
I could tell you how my blood boils.. when your laying by my side...
But never mention the lonely nights.. without you that I've cried,
I could say your skin's like velvet.. and I long to feel your touch...
And I doubt there's anyone alive.. who could make me feel as much,
I could tell you how it feels.. to be burning from within...
As the fires rage out of control.. just beneath my skin,
Or I could say "I don't care".. I could say that "I was high"...
But every single word I spoke.. would be another lie,
Maybe I should walk away.. and never say a thing...
I don't want the broken heart... goodbye always brings.
steve, 26 maja 2018
You walked into the room last night.. and I could barely breathe..
I couldn't take my eye's off you.. and my mind could not concieve,
That anything more beautiful.. in this world might exist..
As my eye's caressed all of you.. there was nothing that was missed,
I don't remember what was said.. as my world, dissolved away..
You were all that I could see.. beyond you, only gray,
I couldn't bring my words to mouth.. and I couldn't let it show..
The inferno that consumed me.. was not in my control,
I had to walk away from you.. my thoughts were not my own..
My heart was in complete control.. and you were not alone,
With bated breath and heavy heart.. I tore myself away..
Wanting nothing more than you.. I kept my tears at bey,
There's no good reason.. to let you know, what I feel for you..
It wouldn't change a single thing.. and I wouldn't want it to,
I'll always see you with my heart.. the way I saw you then..
And always will the fires burn.. "just beneath my skin".
sg
steve, 19 kwietnia 2017
The sun won't shine without you... the nights are twice as long...
And I'm just lying in the dark... wondering what went wrong,
The sky's no longer blue... the way it used to be...
And even when the stars come out... it's just too dark to see,
The truth is.. life without you... hasn't been the same...
I still break down every time... someone says your name,
I can't pretend the pain away... it's just too hard to do...
And I can't forget the way it was... I've never wanted to,
Our friends won't come here anymore.. they don't know what to say...
As I keep the curtains drawn uptight.. and stay in bed all day,
I pick up all the pieces.. and say that.. "it's all good"...
But it's just a lie to cover up.. how I've never understood,
The sun may rise tomorrow.. but it's just another day...
For nothing in this world makes sense.. since you went away.
steve, 28 listopada 2016
We'd been ten years together.. but I'm not going to lie...
As the hardest year's I've ever faced... I wish had passed me by,
There were trials we faced together.. and trials I faced alone...
Times that I needed you.. but you left me on my own,
There are things that I've forgiven.. and things I can't forget...
But the love I had.. forever changed.. the first time I was hit,
If it all had played out different.. if you had more self-control...
The love we had.. may have survived.. despite the heavy toll,
Our actions cause reactions.. and the foundation that was laid...
Was a price that cost us everything.. and should never have been paid,
We can't turn back the hands of time.. we can't change who we are...
What we had went up in flames.. just like a burning car,
It was all downhill their after.. and I should have walked away...
I could have saved us both the pain.. of the higher price we'd pay,
If you're always in the fast lane..someday your going to crash...
But I'd like to think that something.. could be carried from the ash..
What's done is done.. we must move on.. let the past remain the past...
And together, turn what we destroyed.. into friendship that will last,
If anger and resentment.. are allowed to have control...
Friendship's not an option.. as we'll have to just let go,
After all these years together.. if we let go what was lost...
I think that we can build a bridge.. that both of us could cross.
steve, 27 listopada 2016
Two hearts beating.. side by side...
Torn apart.. is love denied,
But even miles.. cannot erase...
The love that know one.. could replace,
Now this heartbeats.. just for you...
Through lonely nights.. and tears of blue,
And dreams someday.. the love that flows...
From my heart.. to yours will know,
No walls.. nor fence.. nor miles between...
Two hearts.. could ever change a thing,
As the world, we knew... was torn apart...
My love still soars.. into your heart,
Like golden wings.. into the sun...
Two hearts filled.. become as one.
steve, 27 czerwca 2015
If only things were different.. you might still be here...
And I could set the world on fire.. instead of shedding tears,
If only I'd of listened.. to things you had to say...
Instead of rushing out the door.. to the same thing everyday,
If only I could see you.. and look into your eye's...
I'd never let you get away.. there'd be no more goodbye's,
If only I could have one chance.. to do it all again...
I didn't know the hour glass.. was running out of sand,
If only I'd of shown... the love I have for you...
Instead of somehow thinking.. that you already knew,
If only it was not too late.. and I never had to say...
Those two words I've come to hate... that haunt me everyday.
sg
steve, 19 czerwca 2015
Its safe to say.. you'll never know, just what I feel inside...
You'll never know the lonely nights.. or see the tears I've cried,
And you'll never have to wonder.. why you feel this way...
Or hide the shame of who you are.. for fear they'll know your gay,
You'll never have to live a lie.. or pretend your what, your not...
But you'll always hear the reasons why.. they deserved just what they got,
You'll never have to just pretend.. how happy that you are...
While the only place you feel at ease... is some seedy down town bar,
You'll never have hear the words.. " a choice, that you have made"...
While making death a cheaper price.. than what we have to pay,
Things you take for granted.. are things I'll never know...
With so much hate for those like me.... were not allowed to go,
I'll never have "that special day" .. to proclaim my love out loud...
And no one will ever call me "Dad".. or want to make me proud,
I'm not afforded all the rights... that you enjoy each day...
And there are places.. you don't dare.. to let them know your gay,
If hate and fear are nurtured... just how can we progress?
As children take there lives each day.. for what they can't confess,
And how many lives must be lost.. before the world will see...
Your born with the heart you carry.. its not what you chose to be,
Open your eyes, I'm your brother.. your sister.. a friend that you knew...
Let go of the hate and the anger.. and what you'll see looking back is you.
sg
steve, 6 czerwca 2015
If somehow there was more for us.. more than just a friend...
And I didn't have to hide it all.. from "whispers in the wind"
If somehow all the tears I've cried.. could wash away the pain...
And I could hold your hand in mine.. I wouldn't mind the rain,
If somehow I could change it all.. I'd make you love me too...
And it wouldn't be just in my dreams... I'm spending time with you,
If somehow you could see inside.. the person that I am...
It might be more than just a glance.. you might just "give a dam",
If somehow I could stop the pain.. this broken heart will feel...
Knowing you will never care.. and that I alway's will,
If somehow I could end it all.. I might just say goodbye...
I'm so damed tired of lonely.. and asking myself.. why.
sg
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