Angel, 11 april 2012
The real me is hidden behind a mask,
And no one will see her even if they ask.
She's hidden away for no one to find,
Because she doesn't need someone else in her mind.
I cut so I can bleed,
Giving no warning heed.
The knife always leaves a scar,
There's reasons why I go so far.
But my reasons are what you would not understand,
So I always keep my blade in hand.
I'm sorry I keep these secrets from you,
I'm nothing, I'm useless, and a disappointment too.
I kept these secrets from you for your own good,
You say I'm clean. I wish I could.
But keeping this pain inside for so many years,
Is killing me and leaving me in tears.
I wish my life was pretty and pure,
Now with my life, nothing is for sure.
I love you and I'll miss you 'til the end of this day,
This is my dying letter and I have nothing left to say.
Angel, 26 march 2012
I feel chills,
Straight to the bone.
I feel dead,
And still as stone.
At home you can hear me,
Always crying.
And to the world,
I'm always lying.
I have lost trust,
in every human being.
because you didn't like,
what you were seeing.
You knew my hurts,
And you knew my pains.
You knew my losses,
And my very few gains.
You knew the state,
That I was in.
And acted as if,
My living was a sin.
Now when it comes to my feelings,
I've no one to confide.
And my happiness comes,
And goes like the tide.
You put me down,
Frequently.
You broke me down,
Completely.
Now listen,
To the sound.
Of a life,
That's breaking down.
Ever so slowly,
Falling apart.
What's not easily mended,
Is a broken heart.
Angel, 26 march 2012
Do you see the smile on my face that beams?
I put it on to hide my dreams
I can't stand it when people judge me
By the "innocent" girl they see
They think I'm an angel well they're wrong
They don't know that all my nights are long
They don't know my hurts and they don't know my pain
They don't know my secrets or that I'm ready to go insane
My life is filled with so much hurt
So it doesn't matter if he was a flirt
I'm so sick and tired of being played
Cause now the edges of my heart are frayed
Just want it all to end
And death is right around the bend
Ii just want someone to be
The guy who actually likes me for me
Who will not care about my past
A relationship that will actually last
I have a certain guy in mind
Who to me is a real find
He's funny and smart
And has a really big heart
He can make me smile when I want to cry
And make me forget that I want to die
He doesn't like to see me sad
So I hope that he will not be mad
If he ever finds out about how I feel
And it's not just physical pain that's real
I wish that we could like each other
But he may have already fallen for another...
Angel, 26 march 2012
I'm tired of the pain and tired of the
hurt
I thought he liked me because all we did was flirt
Then she came and spread the words
And everyone believed what they had heard
Now I'm only looked down upon
And only someone to poke fun of
Shes already all over him
So I might as well let her win
Because it's not worth the drama or the pain
In the end I know I'll be left in the rain
Too bad you never heard my cries
Because of how well I hid them with lies
You thought I was innocent as a lamb
But I'm not the girl you think I am
There is so much more to me
Than you will ever see
So don't you even pick up your phone
I just want you to leave me alone
Angel, 26 march 2012
Silent nights,
Secret frights.
Balled up fist,
Scars on wrists.
Cut then bleed,
The fire you must feed.
The pain you cry,
The smile you lie.
The words that are said,
End with you dead
Angel, 26 march 2012
You were,
my first and last.
And now you are,
my bitter past.
You gave me,
so much pain.
So now theres nothing left,
for me to gain.
You came,
and brooke my heart.
And you tore,
my life apart.
I clinged to,
your every word.
And i believed,
everything I heard.
Now everytime,
my heart gets opened.
I always end up,
being broken.
I'm tired,
of being hurt.
And being treated,
like less than dirt.
I treated you,
like my best friend.
Now i'll ever fall,
in love again.
All my troubles,
started with you.
And all my crying,
did too.
Did you know,
you made me so depressed?
My sweet little face,
you would always caress?
It never smiles,
anymore.
Because of the girl,
you left me for.
For you I always,
put up a fight.
And loved you,
with all of my might.
You walked away,
And left me in the dust.
And forgetting you,
Is a must...
Angel, 24 march 2012
She hears a voice,
Over the phone.
But only when,
She is alone.
He calls her,
Every day and night.
But is scared to be,
In her sight.
He doesn't want her,
To know who he is.
But the only heart,
He wants her to have is his.
The reason why,
He always hides,
Is cause he thinks,
He's not worthy to be in her eyes.
She's always alone,
In the summer heat.
And always asks,
If they can meet.
She crys and sits,
Around at home.
And always wants,
To be alone.
He's the only one,
She wants to see.
Because with him,
She can finally be,
The girl that lives,
Her whole life fear.
Without even,
Shedding a tear.
Finally he decides,
To give in.
Ready to feed,
The fire within.
They finally decided,
To meet at school.
So long as they followed,
One simple rule.
To be continued...
Angel, 24 march 2012
I loved you, from the start.
But then you went and broke my heart.
You shattered it, like glass.
Will the pain, ever pass?
I had dreamed of calling you my boyfriend
Until you decided to have us end.
Your words had put me in a trance
But you broke it off because of distance.
I said I loved you
You said you loved me too.
Now there's only, tension I the air
In remembrance of how, you were always there.
There are times where I miss you like crazy.
But the memories are often hazy.
I just want to see
You smile at me.
After all this time you've been away
There are times I wish you would have stayed
You said we'd be together for all time
I was so happy that you were mine.
But then I saw you all over her
Until my sight became blurred
By the tears that overwhelmed my eyes
So this is what I get for believing all your lies.
You said our love was something nothing could severe,
But then again, nothing lasts forever.
Now love is something that's hard for me to feel.
I guess there's some things that time cannot heal.
Now all I do is lay in bed.
Which is where, you'll find me dead
Gone due to a broken heart.
Looks like loves is no work of art.
Love is sharp just like a knife
And the reason why I want to end my life.
So do me a favor and do not cry
For very soon I'm sure I will die...
Angel, 24 march 2012
I believed,
Every lie.
And every one,
Made me cry.
All i did for you,
Was wait,
Now all i can feel,
Is hate.
When we were together,
I always sighed.
And when you left me,
I only cried.
Now because,
of all the pain.
I will never fall,
In love again...
Angel, 24 march 2012
I went to bed,
To go to sleep.
To fall into a slumber,
That is ever so deep.
I let my mind,
Fade away.
To leave the earth,
Where I don't wish to stay.
Walking down the street,
Hand in hand.
My mind was in,
Another land.
A place where only,
You and I exist.
There's just something about you,
That's hard to resist.
We laughed,
And talked.
We danced,
And walked.
Though late at night,
We could have spoken 'til noon.
Beneath the soft glow,
Of the beautiful moon.
Throughout that night,
Never once did we part.
For your words mesmerized me,
Like a great work of art.
Everything,
It seemed,
Was nothing but,
A dream.
But every moment,
Was ever so true.
For it was that night,
I fell in love with you.
The next few months,
Were the best I've ever had.
Who knew you'd be the one,
Who'd make me so sad.
For all of a sudden,
We came to an end.
AndtThat was the day,
I lost my best friend.
You're the one,
Who broke away.
You turned my clear blue skies,
To grey.
You walked away,
And never looked back.
My whole entire life,
Fell into the darkness so black,
All I know now,
Is that I'll miss you.
Your smile, your eyes,
And your big bear hugs too.
If you don't,
Already know.
Because if you,
My death will be slow.
Now as the sun,
Rises for the dawn.
I realize now,
You're forever gone...
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