11 kwietnia 2012
Her Dying Song (explicit for one word)
My heart is gone I am now dead,
Laying on the floor on the carpet stained red.
You'll find a knife in my balled up fist,
And see the cut I made on my wrist.
You think to yourself, what went wrong?
You truly have no idea what was going on.
You saw a piece of paper with your name across the top,
The shock of what you read inside made your heart stop.
"My darling love don't worry about me,
I'm out of my misery as you can now see.
I know I was your angel pretty and pure,
You said I was perfect how were you sure?
You don't know what I was going through,
Because I chose to hide it from you.
I didn't want you to see your angel in pain,
And I didn't want you to know I was going insane.
You always asked why I wore those bracelets on my arm,
Well it was to hide all my self-inflicted harm.
My life wasn't as perfect as you thought it was,
But please know that you were not the cause.
I know on the outside that I looked fine,
But that was because the pain was only mine.
For the past three years my family's been falling apart,
Crushing me slowly leaving a broken heart.
All the rumors about me being a whore,
They're not true and I don't know what they're for.
I'm sorry that I was never alright,
I've been broken inside while losing this fight.
Finally the battle's lost.
This is how I paid my cost.
Baby I love you don't you ever forget,
All the times with you I'll never regret.
But the earth is no place for me,
I know in death I can finally be free.
You'll find someone better than all the rest,
Only if your mind is put to the test.
You deserve better than me,
A perfect girl to love for eternity.
I'm sorry you had to find out this way,
And I really wish that I could stay.
But this is where I do not belong,
I'm sorry you had to hear my dying song."
He could barely see with the tears in his eyes,
Now seeing the pain she hid with lies.
He thought to himself never again will we dance,
Forever gone is our sweet romance.
There goes my heart, my mind and my soul,
Never again will my life be whole.
She was my one and only one,
Beautiful and shining, bright like the sun.
Why did I not see this before?
Now I feel cold and dead to the core.
Never again will I hold her in my arms,
Doing my best to keep her from harm.
I'm the one, who failed her bad,
I should have seen she was so sad.
My baby girl is dead because of me,
I was so naïve that I couldn't see.
All the pain she inflicted upon herself,
I should have seen her plea for help.
He saw her lifeless body as it lay on the floor,
And slowly but surely he fell against the door.
He couldn't believe what he just read,
Because now his sweet baby girl was dead.
I swear i made this up